Maybe I Could Video (MV)

I'm afraid this situation isn't changing, I could change it if I make it
Thinking maybe, thinking maybe I could, yeah
Only if I'm innovative, I've been saying there's a difference in doing or thinking maybe I should
I've been watching every step that I take,
I've got this hunger in my belly but I'm avoiding the pressure plate
The definition of insanity... doing the same thing
Yeah I think I probably need a method change
All I seem to do is come up with inventive ways
To find the things that I need to say, and never say 'em
I attribute it to people in my past, which is why I've been so guarded with my heart
Maybe I let it break
I've been devastated, and so I hesitate
I need to get this weight off my shoulders maybe I'll levitate
And do what I need to do to survive
Been in the dark so long, maybe I'm due for some light, I'm
Learning that I'm a student of life
I take this knowledge that I've newly acquired and do the right thing
But I'm terrified, if I were to step out of line
I'd sever ties, all the detriment it might bring
I'm feeling like I'm losing my relationships
I wonder if they're moving on because I say so
See I could never be sure,
Cause everything I'm saying isn't landing
But I know we're in the same boat
On different wavelengths
Which is fine
Maybe I'm going overboard, trying to draw the line but I've
Been working on myself all my life
So maybe the fault is both of ours
Never yours or mine
Cause I've been thinking bout these better days, maybe I could - yeah
But I don't wanna be the only one, baby I couldn't
Can someone tell me that they hear me cause I'm doing my best
I just feel a little lost right now
I just feel a little lost right now
I feel the weight of the world on my shoulders daily
Maybe I need to make an escape but I hate failing, plus
Got so many people counting on me
That I need to be held accountable, been down all week
Still, I never wanna show I'm down or weak
Cause if I ever drop the ball that's a foul on me
And I read cards that I kept, from people I love
Made a promise to myself that I would keep it a hundred percent real
Nothing will get healed, if you never make an effort to tell them how you feel
Talk to em now, Still I'm getting painted as a villain
I try to portray a hero, it's the shade in the acrylics
Or maybe it's an error in perception
Either way you can blame it on me
Like my father I'm a pillar of strength
I try to wash away your pain let it rain on
Me