Mr. JPatt - The Ultimate Conundrum Lyrics

I hate this life, why the f*ck do I live
Why do I live, why do I live
I might just be another person eating their sorrows away
But why do I live just to make these regrettable mistakes
A life where I hate myself everyday
Mom, I'm cold; I feel so lonely
I'm living out in this ice forest with no one around me, just an empty campfire
I have been hurt, still those blows hurt me
I am falling apart, my heart can't take much more hate
It might look fixed but it is broken on the inside
You have to live with this life full of pain and hate
I seen my mom dead, what a hard thing to live through
I was not the best child when I was younger but now I know what life is
An ungrateful burden to give to a person
These little burdens will always be a part of me
I will not let them consume me

You will never be able to run from them
This conundrum must continue, you are the main attraction
Hurt for us, bleed for us, we want to see you fail
You mustn't give up, you can not
You will always hurt the way you do
Ahhh you are part of this little circus
Instead of tricks, there are horrible memories
Some you want shot out of your brain
I will keep you living, watching these memories
You will hurt just for me
The blood will run down your neck
You will keep bleeding till you can't no more
We are here to watch you be punished, watch you hurt
Just keep living a bit longer, I want to see you pull your hair
Watch you pull your ears out so you can't hear us anymore
Pull your eyes out so you can't see us anymore, oh what fun
We might be evil but have you seen your memories

I have seen my memories
They are bad and I feel sad
You keep watching me fall, wanting me to fail
I have been through the worse
It just keeps getting better from now on, you hear
This year will be big for me
My friends care for me
You are just my thoughts trying to become my actions
I might have been a failure in the past
But I'm different now, I have improved
I am better than the past me
You must know, I have told you my little mind
YOU WON'T WATCH ME BLEED ANYMORE

I will watch you bleed, that was just the first step
You have many more steps down
Watching people die and your dreams become dust
Justin you must know, you are a failure
Your life has meant nothing to anyone
You will never acquaint to anyone
You must die, you aren't worth it

You are my mind, why are you making me feel worse
What have I done to make my mind hate the person I have become
I am the almost perfect version of my younger self
My stomach doesn't feel too well, I must sit down now