Muscotti - Through God's Eyes Lyrics

You wanna talk emotions, Where do I begin
Feels like I'm in the ocean, and they tell me sink or swim
I'm definitely not floatin', my feet feel like cement
So I'm at the bottom of the ocean, Just hangin' with the fish
Sometimes I feel hopeless, but then I catch a breath
The oxygen is potent, it almost burns my chest
But every breath I hold in, takes me closer to the next
But at the bottom of the ocean, you go up, or wish for death
So why're you here? Is it cause you feel so different you don't wanna deal with real life
I know exactly what that feels like
So much of an outcast it doesn't feel right
And feeling wrong is the reason you turn to alcohol and pills right
But if you die, where are you goin' have you found your path
Did you take your life for granted cause today could be your last
Don't you want a brighter future to shine over all the past
Or do you wanna end up deep, beneath the dirt and grass
See when I started rappin' mom and dad were disappointed
But time passed, I got better, now they both support it
They still ain't happy bout the cursin' and I tell em it's just words
But the situation worsens when they say that I'm annointed
Cause I feel like Jonah, Minus the whale
Keep runnin' from God's plan, I'ma end up in Hell
They always worry 'bout me like i'm endin' in jail
But that ain't the goal at all, I take care of myself
I should have been a Christian rapper and to me that didn't matter
I always wondered if I did, Would've I had made it any faster
But now I'm in too deep, and there's no moving backwards
But I can give you food for thought, and deliver to the masses
So, put the bottle down and look around
If no one else is there, well, I'll be the one to reach out
Look at me preach now, look at my teach now
I stay ten toes down, even when I step out of bounds
Feels like I've damned myself
Sometimes I look in the mirror and I can't myself
But this time it's not me lookin' for a hand to help
But instead, my head says lend a hand yourself
I've done a lot of wrong in my days
I live to be better, I had to change all my ways
I looked through God's eyes and what I saw would help me change
My life forever, now I wonder what he would say