Nata Maxey & Isaac McKenna - If Only Lyrics

If only you could see me
Through all the walls I build around myself
Searching the skies, counting the stars
My soul on the highest shelf
And how it hurts, oh it's the worst
A color I'm not fond of yet
But maybe if you hold me once
We can just forget

But I'll stay away though it tears me inside
'Cause you don't deserve me, through all that I've tried
You'll never feel the love that I always hide
Your hands will stay away from me
By your side

'Cause though I try, tears burning dry
It'll never be enough for you
I'll give you everything I have
'Til there's nothing but the truth

But I deserve the lying shadows that hide in the runes
The monsters that break my skin, the poison fumes
They tear me down, time and time again

And maybe once in a while
We can find the glowing smile in the fairy lights
And maybe once, just one time
You can see me through all I hide