Nathanaël Anstadt - Death of a Friend Lyrics

I don't try to revive the old woman
After all I know it's never worked out
I'd love to say I was wise in my doubt
But I just don't want to be hurt again
The old woman should die dignified
So I won't try in vain
Better to just sigh
Better to cry from her sad bedside
Could you see I'd given up the right to breathe
In exchange for a few seconds of sleep
I know it shouldn't really matter to me
The old woman is drawing her last breath
But deep down I wish she'd evade death
And maybe for once she stay with me
But I let her die
Like I let myself die
I even scream at her and try to laugh
The tears stall; It hurts to even try
Could you see I'd given up the right to breathe
In exchange for a few seconds of sleep
Just as I'm to accept I'm just some guy
I must equally accept that I will never be
More than a lonely old locked up whore
Something childish something unloveable