Nebula - R.I.P Joy Lyrics

I grieve the lost of my joy
Feel annoyed
Everytime I try to conquer the noise
Null in void
Fun activites
I fail to enjoy
Not a choice
All I crave is just a glimmer of joy
Just a bit
When I sit
I hope my anime hit
Serotonin
Got a negative dip
Tripple beam
I'm not surprised that it tipped
Hold contempt
Saw my happiness it's gone in a blimp
Ain't dead
But this shole is a glimpse
Need meds
Ain't seen my doctor nem yet
Hope they have my back
Keep it real
Keep it a stack
Give my happy back
Don't want my color wheel to turn black
But I know better than that
Not magicians
I know better than that
Mm
I know it's not comin back
My happy not comin back
Mm
And I know better than that