Nish - Love & War Lyrics

It's kinda hard saying this shit to your face so I do it over snares and bass
I said it's kinda hard saying this shit to your face so I do it over snares and bass
I should've known from the start
Once we had chosen our path, we'd soon be growing apart
From rollin up in the park, watching stars after dark
To broken hearts, and acting like we'd leave it all in the past
I get it
My best friends always try to see the best in me
Meet someone, rehearse lines and sell them a dream
Knowin' when I leave, she'll be rolling in the deep
Going therapy, her tears running like a stream
Its vicious but all is fair in love & war, and I'm not aiming to please
I came to compete, that's just the way that I've been
Too many people wore me out like accessories
Too many people I shoulda never gave access to me
But your belief in me was all I needed
You saw potential in me, but you're not here to see me achieve it
We came in this together but it seems like now you're leaving
It's hard for me to speak on it but that's just how I'm feeling,
For real
It's kinda hard saying this shit to your face so I do it over snares and bass
I said it's kinda hard saying this shit to your face so I do it over snares and bass
You idolise influencers screaming self-love
Claiming they self-made, yappin' bout self help
And you yourself swear, it's for your welfare
Hiding behind self-care, to justify being selfish
When you don't water grass, it looks greener on the other side
So you swipe swipe swipe with a wandering eye
Wondering why, it's all small talk
Come tell me all your deepest secrets you don't share with other people
Too worried how they'll perceive you, like how your father would beat you
And never treated your mum equal
Childhood demons, you dream of, that manifest into people you sleep with
Grew up thinking this the type of love you needed
So am I the reason? You go out every evening? Taking pictures in that dress you know is so revealing?
Or am I the reason? You're still in your feelings? Posting quotes to your story about spiritual healing?
Am I the reason? Wait... was I the reason?
It's kinda hard saying this shit to your face so I do it over snares and bass
But when it's all said and done, I guess we're really both the same
I got some healing to do
From conversation everyday to never speakin again
I wanna know where we stand, are we still even friends?
You always craved the type of love that your family holds
So why you searching for a soulmate through an app on your phone?
When we broke it off, you said you were happy alone
But I guess you're happy acting from the actions you show
Blackout drunk with my bredrins
Blackout drunk in my room
Champagne problems get expensive
But I still sip it like Juice
XO Henny, took too many
Dance with the devil on her bedsheets
I tell my lil baby please don't sleep
Cause I hate sleeping alone