Normundy - What I Fear The Most Lyrics

I'm in my head so much, I really can't decipher
What I feel from what's real, and what I should hide from
Yeah, I'm on one again
Yeah, I drop my defense
Get my hopes up, but I'm just so tired, I mean it
I don't really see it as you do
With this dark cloud that falls down restricting my view
It's a nuisance
But is the noose an improvement
These invasive thoughts have me feeling so stupid
It's useless
I pick myself apart like they do
And hold myself to standards I know I can't make do
I never let them see the weakness that's inside of me
'Cause there's some pride to me. I know it to stay true
If they only knew the demons that I face
When I'm in another world that's so difficult to place
I could live at my own pace and escape the monotony
And all the negativity that fills a part of me
Tell me, why am I not enough
All these voices up in my mind got me so messed up
When I make a mistake, I can never let it go
When I look at my face, I see what I fear the most
Tell me, why am I not enough for myself
And I struggle with it daily
Suffer with these preconceptions that'll only drive me crazy
No, you can't save me, I can only save myself
Never one who's known to back down or ever ask for help
Not a selfish progression, just held by depression
Enveloped by self-deprecation, pathetic
And, though I said it, I just hope I come around
I build myself up just to break myself down
But I know the way
To find the pieces
And through those mistakes
That left me bleeding
I won't throw away
What I've been seeking
So long as I'm still breathing, it's clear
Tell me, why am I not enough
All these voices up in my mind got me so messed up
When I make a mistake, I can never let it go
When I look at my face, I see what I fear the most
Tell me, why am I not enough for myself
For myself
I'm worth so much more than I give myself credit for
My anxiety pushes me forward
My depression holds me back
I'm gonna lose my life
If I don't get my mind on track
Why am I not enough
Why am I not enough
Why am I not enough
Why am I not enough
I'll only be enough
For myself when I realize that I always was
When I make a mistake, I will learn to let go
When I look at my face, I will let myself know
That I've always been enough
For myself
The answer is love for myself
The answer is love for myself
The answer is love for myself