Nuckafternamos - Flaws Lyrics

I look around now, this ain't my town now
I think of people i knew that are in the ground now
It's got me up late, can't even think straight
It makes me worried I'm gonna fall to the same fate
I almost did once, I almost did twice
I tried again a third time, fourth time I'll pay the price
I'm getting so tired, that's just how my brains wired
Trust too much it backfires, got me feeling uninspired
I've been like this for a while, don't know how to smile
I do know how to dress well, well that's just my lifestyle
I blame my absent father for the problems that become of me
Drugs, drinking, thinking I'm on the brink of insanity
At home I feel so lonely, locked in my room with only
My thought, a guitar, and my testimony
When I put my thoughts into words the pen flies just like a bird
What only my friends have heard
I break down with every word

Yeah they tell me so
Tell me that they don't know
Don't know why I'm in pain
Tell me that I am insane
But I can show
Show them that they don't know
Show them that you're for me
But you are free

I won the battle but I'm losing the war
That night stay in my head and I don't know what for
It's been months since it's happened, to be exact four
But I still get sick picturing your clothes on the floor
And you've said so many times
I'm sorry
But sorry never changes the past
And I've bled so many times, I can't feel it
I'll admit I've thought of new girls and my last
And I hate how he had to cut you off just so that you finally see you want me (Oh God)
I know it's not fair for me to bring this up again, but it just won't let me be
I push myself away 'cause I get scared
That everything we built will fall apart
Don't ever love me baby and you'll be spared
From a let down, phone calls, and broken heart

(You don't wanna hear that shit Skylar)
(I do wanna hear that)
(Don't, don't tell me you wanna hear that shit)
(I wanted to hear it because I wanna help you, because I wanna be)
(Help me, what the f*ck, what do I got a f*cking sign on my back, that says save me)
(No)
(Does it look like I need that)

Yeah they tell me so
Tell me that they don't know
Don't know why I'm in pain
Tell me that I am insane
But I can show
Show them that they don't know
Show them that you're for me
But you are free

(I wanna hear you say that you don't love me, because if you say that, then I won't call you, and I won't be in your life)
(I don't love you)