Nuckafternamos - I Just Died / Freestyle Lyrics

I'm so tired, I think I just died
I think I need faith
I think I need God
I'm so tired, I think I just died
I think I need faith
I think I need God

I'm so tired gotta, catch up on sleep
Gotta catch up on the things that be making me, me
I've been out of breathe screaming nearly ten times a week
Thinking about the time I'll just be dangling feet (F*ck)
Are you dead if you're not living your life
Are you dead if you're not living it right
I've been spending mine just trying to fight
For a part of me that wants to be living one night
It's a burning pain, and a f*cked up game
I spent too much time thinking up my name
Thinking of a lane I gotta keep it in
F*ck up my brain and take shots for sins
I hope I'm numb when i'm dead
When I rest in the bed
Right when I just got head
But it still makes me feel like i'm less than the bread
And less of a man
For planning to lose in this race that I ran
And it's been too many f*cking years
I've been trapped up in the corner just trying to make it here
I got no one else to say that they'll always be near
So losing you just might be my biggest fear
I know its my time soon
'Cause I haven't felt like I've been living since noon
I feel dead and lonely trapped inside this room
I can't believe that i'm getting hurt by you

I'm so tired, I think I just died
I think I need faith
I think I need God
I'm so tired, I think I just died
I think I need faith
I think I need God

Let's put the focus on you
Talk about all the shit that you use to do
Talking f*ck with my friend, and f*ck with my heart
From the beginning, we were doomed from the start
You would never show love, you would never show us
The closest I feel to you is when we f*ck
And I know that ain't right, and I know we need help
So on God baby you can't fix this yourself
You say it's my fault that you're sad and lonely
You blame my depression
You're fake bitch you're phony
You can't put that on me
You promised you'd be here, you promised you'd be here
You became my fear bitch
You say you don't wanna f*ck but you put it right on me
You say you're not good enough but you never try to be
So i'm sick of this shit, you're unloyal you bitch
You hurt me more now than if we were to
Never have cuffed and never have kissed
You caring about me's that shit that I miss
Shit now I can't breathe, and now I can't see
What I want for us, for us to be
I'm coming full circle, I'm sorry as f*ck
I don't mean this shit, I do but i'm stuck
I simply feel stuck, I simply feel stuck
I'd miss you too much
I won't just give up
I love you?

Love ain't a cure it's just a feeling
But i'll be God damned to say it hasn't helped healing
I need to find myself, find happiness
So i can appreciate it
Love is a feeling, and I'll feel forever
I'm breathing for you, and I'll breathe forever
You find the happiness in the rainiest weather
Twenty years and I see us together
Whatever