Nuri - No Halo Lyrics

If I'm gonna make it through this game
I gotta think outside the box
Being a loser with no name
Well I guess it's just not enough
I've just been through hell and back
At least that's how I felt in fact
No need to overreact
Cuz maybe it's not over - the act

Okay
Maybe I'm still stuck in my ways
Stuck in a maze
Write then erase never amazed
Had to break myself to get out of this place
Would you do the same?
Would you take the blame?
If you had a chance how much would you change?

When I feel left out I go into my right side
When I'm not alright I center into my mind
Tryna figure out if the way to peace
Is to take a piece of my mental
Please don't you try to piss me off

I think I lost my way I need to get a way
Maybe if I'm gone then they'll want me to stay
I don't wanna be running from something
I wanna be running towards something

Should I have a heart of stone or a heart of gold
Either way I know that I can't be both
There's this thing called pride sitting down my throat
And the more I push it down the more I feel alone

I've been M.I.A
Tryna find myself can you just let me be?
I don't need you invading my privacy
Yeah I got my daddy issues - suck my D
You've probably figured out the scheme was "a" to "e"

Get off f*cking get off
My back is hurting and I'm so lost
Where's this train off to?
My mind is getting air tossed ripped my hair off
Thought I learned lesson - guess not
But I still caught what this train taught

Do they know
I'm not as I say so
Where's my guardian angel
Cuz I can't see no halo no halo

Now that you've learned my cruel face
Shall we raid into a new place
A place where you can be yourself
And I'll be two face?
I can't promise to be true all the way
You say you are but you're gone at the end of the day

Okay take a step back we've gone too deep
Sailing in my sea of thoughts no land no sleep
At least I'm safe of harm, my world my dream
Oh shit I didn't know these f*ckers learned to swim

Battle with my kind I'm fighting with my mind
I'm fighting to survive this ain't no paradise and they demand a price they want a sacrifice
Well they demand I pay a tension
Not the notice part, but my mental strain and
I know it's a trap
They want me to snap
They want me to crack
Growing paranoid
I'm living life always under attacked
But f*ck it bring it all you've got
Bring me all you've got
Come at me motherf*ckers
I can always be-be myself like that

I think I lost my way I need to get a way
Maybe if I'm gone then they'll want me to stay
I don't wanna be running from something
I wanna be running towards something

Should I have a heart of stone or a heart of gold
Either way I know that I can't be both
There's this thing called guilt sitting in my boat
And the more I push it down the more it wants to grow
Will I make it on my own will I ever blow?
Either way I hope that I'm proud who knows
Got my arms spread wide they're waiting for my fall
And on my way down I realized it's my world

Do they know
I'm not as I say so
Where's my guardian angel
Cuz I can't see no halo no halo
I'm so lost
Gone away with no cause
Nothing but these low thoughts
Cuz I can't see no halo no halo