NVM Nvrmnd - Addict Lyrics

I'm rolling the blunt
Trying to smoke my pain
I'm trying to trust
But I cannot trust a thing
I'm trying to love
But it all just fades away
Rain on me
I'm rolling the blunt
Trying to smoke my pain
I'm trying to trust
But I cannot trust a thing
I'm trying to love
But it all just fades away
Rain on me

I am an addict
I don't understand I don't understand it
I search for the addys
I cannot manage no I cannot Manage
I did not plan this
It just sort of happened
And now I am dragging entirely down
And if I keep goin I'll be six feet under this ground
I think of myself
I guess I am selfish
I don't want your help
You don't understand
What I'm going through
Your not in my head i call it my hell
You can't tell what I'm feeling deep down inside
I'm numb to the pain until it wears off and when it all does
I jus wanna cry I tell the world bye
Look in my eyes

I smile in public but i know deep down it's all a descise
Inside I am dying I look in the mirror i don't know that side
I drown in this liquor until I can't feel then i realize
This pain is for real
I wish you could feel what I feel

I'm rolling the blunt
Trying to smoke my pain
I'm trying to trust
But I cannot trust a thing
I'm trying to love
But it all just fades away
Rain on me

Look in my eyes
I smile in public but i know deep down it's all a descise
Inside I am dying I look in the mirror i don't know that side
I drown in this liquor until I can't feel then i realize
This pain is for real
I wish you could feel what I feel

I'm rolling the blunt
Trying to smoke my pain
I'm trying to trust
But I cannot trust a thing
I'm trying to love
But it all just fades away
Rain on me