Odd Promise - Up Lyrics

I've been losing sleep
Burning seconds like the gears that are slipping in this timepiece
I think about what could've been
Burning over and over those days again
But in my head
I cant stay worried for long
As if today hasn't already gone wrong

I see this scriptured reality begin to fade
Like the shimmering horizon laid out before me
With a birds eye view of all you tin-tongued devils
And mediocre men

I thought I hit the bottom again
I scared the life out of all my friends
This time reflecting lies
My future
My past
I turned this dagger against myself
Tangled up in these words from my mouth
Keep tunneling into the ground
No idea which way is up now

Remembering your sins in the counting house
Blurring all your fine lines
I'm getting older I'm the beholder
You can't control everything
Look into my eyes take time to craft your lie
You've grown weary and contrite
I can't breathe you back to life

They say I lost my way
But you can't make me stay
There's nothing left of this dream land I helped create
I am the monster you seek
I am the air you breath
I am the face in the torch light

I thought I hit the bottom again
I scared the life out of all my friends
This time reflecting lies
My future
My past
I turned this dagger against myself
Tangled up in these words from my mouth
I keep tunneling into the ground
No idea which way is up now