Oddity - Losin' Focus Lyrics

I keep losin' my focus
Tryna get my mind back right
I can't let this time pass by
Livin' a life that's complacent
I keep losin' my focus
Chasin' these digits from women
I hit then forget 'em the cycle is endless my dreams have been hindered cuz
I keep losin' my focus
I keep losin' my focus
My focus
I keep losin' my focus

Time's on that Houdini shit like POOF
Gone in an instant
Thought that my ceiling was the roof but
Then I found proof
If I reached even higher that a ceiling wasn't there such a misconception
Liquor's infestin' my mental health it's
Detrimental type shit
That stress is winnin' type shit
I need to change my mindset
I can go back through and find texts
That show me in a brighter place
I'm losin' focus and I know that if I hide away that life is hopeless
I've been havin' trouble copin' with the struggle of growin' older I know that it's all in my head
Feelin' like the lense is blurry, image hurried
Not enough time in the dark room
Underdeveloped, enveloped in this weird helplessness
It might take me over, really it just all depends
If I crawl or stand no infant shit
My palms and hands both in a grip
Prayin' for some peace of mind
At least peanut or pecan-sized, is that nuts?
I don't even know anymore, man it sucks
Barely keepin' hope anymore, just enough
To see a glimmer of light at the end of the tunnel
Maybe I'll keep runnin' until my life's on the come up
From sun up to sun down these thoughts never stop comin'

I keep losin' my focus
Tryna get my mind back right
I can't let this time pass by
Livin' a life that's complacent
I keep losin' my focus
Chasin' these digits from women
I hit then forget 'em the cycle is endless my dreams have been hindered cuz
I keep losin' my focus
I keep losin' my focus
My focus
I keep losin' my focus

I have been losin' my focus
Would not expect you to know that
Even my closest of homies don't notice
Mostly what they see is what I have chosen to show them
For the most part I stay closed off, no más
Tired of hidin' that shit
Tired of lyin' my lips only open when speaking the truth
Finally trying to give you my view
Let's rewind to a time way back in the past when my pupils seen drugs abuse
No future if I followed I'd be stuck with dudes
Who now a days only stuck with their palms out
Askin' for dollars how'd they fall south
No compass just wandering aimless
Haunted by memories
Taunted by niggas who flaunt what they cannot be
Part of me started to fall cuz the energy
That I had as a youth diminished
The notebook and the booth replinished
The distractions that crossed my path
The interactions I shouldn't have had
The intersections how come I ain't crash
I guess it's luck, I guess I trust my instincts
Lessons tucked into my brain now I think
Long and hard before actions
Used to think carnivore
That's a chicken with beef tryna go ham
Now I don't even eat meat, man
Now I only have one reason for writing these lines
Therapy carrying me through these times
Varying moods
Barely in tune with the dude that I used to be
Aligned with my conscious I choose to be
The clearest, purest version I can be
Fearless when the urge to drop comes I can't sink
Emerged from a certain murky depth the first to reach the steps at the pinnacle
Had to rip the tentacles off me
Tied to a cinder block, they dropped me
Into a river they figured I'd drown
Left were the ripples from where I went down
They were for sure did not think I would live
But I found the courage to be who I am, yea