Of Colours - The Burden I Carry Lyrics

This feeling is growing inside of me, why can't you see?
Through thick and thin, to this day I fear the consequence
I've never known where I belong
I never understood how to stay strong
Panic is knocking at my door
Strained my back turns to the walls
It's weighing me down again

The same questions like a burden I carry
Contemplating, heavy thoughts I can't bury
The mirror shows a face that I can't recognize
I'm looking right through me
Will I mend with time?

It flows like a river that bleeds me dry, I cannot lie
Got used to all the drain, I wrote me off just to stay sane

It seems this life wasn't meant for me
Lost in a dream on my own as my memory
How am I supposed to release myself?
How am I supposed to stand on broken bones?
With my back against the wall
Panic's knocking at my door
Can't hold it anymore

The same questions like a burden I carry
Contemplating, heavy thoughts I can't bury
The mirror shows a face that I can't recognize
I'm looking right through me
Will I mend with time?

Is this my strive for a better self?
Or am I stuck in this dreary hell?
All this life feels like a sacrifice
Will I pay the f*cking price?

It seems this life wasn't meant for me
Lost in a dream on my own as my memory
How am I supposed to release myself?
How am I supposed to stand on broken?

The same questions like a burden I carry
Contemplating, heavy thoughts I can't bury
The mirror shows a face that I can't recognize
I'm looking right through me
Will I mend with time?