Off of Commission - Spoken Words Lyrics

I tried so hard to be what I wanted to be
Looking in the mirror realize it's not what I wanna see anymore
It's kinda funny aint it
That you can try so hard to end up nowhere
Infact you're further back than you were in the start
And it's unclear wether you're a loser or you're just giving in
An abuser of substance or a bad chooser of friends
So we try again for the picture that we want
Then the venom sets in and takes it away again and again
All I wanted was a girl with a house and a yard
Picket fence, then a place we coulda called ours
But it's all broken my heart from the girl to the game
This world is insane and I'm feeling un inspired
True lies are a comfort when we're feeling tired
And I am wired at night like a bomb to go off in mind
But I keep saying it's all in good time
But when am I gonna get whats coming to me and whats mine
I'll leave it all behind

These ideas
You know that time is running out
Then your mind gets all cloudy and you can't see the road from all your doubts
So re arrange em
Maybe time will figure it out
Give me some motivation to help me get up and out this bout
Falling asleep at the wheel
I didn't mean to let you down
I'll take this bottle of rye and drive and drink throughout the night
On my way straight out of this town
I'm crazy
I am
Something quite the opposite of picture perfect
Had the world in my palm but don't know how to serve it
I am
The epitome of failing dreams or hopes on fire
Flames and gasoline if you know what I mean
I am
Feeling uneasy about the time I have left and feeling obsessed about losing the war
I am
Just a little scared of my dreams, take em back cause I don't want em anymore