Goodbye, My Friend Video (MV)

In my bedroom it's like June something
I' m playin Nintendo with some tunes bumpin'
Mom tells me good news that you comin'
But I just shrugged it off like i knew nothin'
I ain' t tryna hold my breath, we been through this so many times
Inside I think you're the best but i done heard so many lies
You were grown and delayed it, did I deserve it though
Imagine a 10 year old watching out the window for his favorite person to show
Eventually you did and we had fun playin' Super Mario
But runnin' the streets seemed more important like you improving cardio
Or maybe im too young and I don't get it though
Or maybe I'm not important or maybe you resent me, whoa
I cant shake these visuals, my mind playing old reels
Let me tell 'em how my soul feels

Goodbye my friend
And all this pain, I hold
Inside my chest
Goodbye my friend
I'm on my own, I know
But I hope to see you again

As i got older I thought how can i love someone who doesn't exist
Now I wish it would hurt less and we could talk and reminisce
Things could be different
You could hug me, I wish
You would've got off those needles
I don't get close to many so it hurts more when i lost my people
I didn't talk to you for so long, it was like i tried to cross out evil
'Cause I grew up so straight edge but now we share the pain like we all felt equal
I'm like fifteen now, not making A's and B's now
Tried out for the football and basketball teams now
But guess what, I quit those too
Because f*ck it all and the shit I go through
But I just brush it off and coast on through
Still pretend that I don't know you
At an early age you stole my token of trust
But soon as you died, them tears poured like I forgot how broken I was

Goodbye my friend
And all this pain, I hold
Inside my chest
Goodbye my friend
I'm on my own, I know
But I hope to see you again

You were an addict and I barely could fathom
That you're not here anymore
We used to be an inseparable tandem
Now i lie on my mattress and try to fight through the madness
Nobody should have to suffer this sadness
Im sorry to scream but something's bothering me
I dont know, maybe its the father in me
You followed a path and I don't really see how
You got a daughter so who's she gonna be now
How could you make a choice like that
Its crazy you were in bands and shit and now your boy writes raps
I didn't speak to you for more than a decade and selfishly so
I just wanted you to change, I f*ckin' dwelled on the hope
But talking about you got me feeling 8 again
In my bedroom where my day began
I should've called but I was angry with you
Then at your funeral I broke down, dad gave me tissues
I made a playlist for them to play at your wake
But nobody knows those were songs that you gave me to play
I'm here unc, can't you hear the pain in my voice
I just want one day with you if god gave me the choice
But you're gone, I've accepted your fate
I'm blessed in a way, never hold grudges that is the lesson today
I love you Jamie, I forgive all the choices you made
I hope you can forgive me the same

Goodbye my friend
And all this pain, I hold
Inside my chest
Goodbye my friend
I'm on my own, I know
But I hope to see you again