Orakles - Part of Me Lyrics

In a room I sit
Not knowing how to forget
Why are you sticking to me
Like a fly on a fly strip
Starving me of my moods
I'm sorry but it's true
This is not what I wanna do
Second guessing all my choices
Debating weather it was right or wrong
I was suicidal all along
A gun to my head
A knife to my wrist
A dead man I is
This was just another war lost
But its how I fit in
Surprised that I'm liven
Keeping it realistic
Cause if I break down
They'll see I'm ditching
Not good for the image
This world we live in
Wishing I was different
Yea it hurts
But found ways to deal with it
Sick and tired of this earth
Wanna be somewhere it doesn't hurt
Built my own world
Cause I feel safe and Secure
Visitations imitated
Don't wanna get attached
To something I never had

We're all in the same game
Just different levels
Dealing with the same hell
Just different devils
Staying up all night
Figuring out what to write
But still get nothing right
Why I'm a scared of light
To much regret in sight
Need a break from life
Sick of living this lie
Everyday the same way
Lie to my mates
Who don't know my mistakes
Smile to fans
Who act like cams
Cry to myself
Who really knows who I am
My minds got me in chains
Like a prisoner locked away
Planning an escape
How can I run away
Trying to save the human race
Kinda hard when you feel
Like a mistake
Kinda hard when a father you trust
Doesn't communicate
Kinda glad we didn't meet
Cause depressions on repeat
Thinking happiness
Wouldn't go away until you ghosted me
I thought you cared for me
Sad the end is dedicated to someone
Who will never see me