Osome Feyn - Retrospect Lyrics

See I've been waking up alone
With no plans or what's going on

No going back just moving on
Tying my best to write a song

Picking lean or booze right along
Daddy left me alone
He's not even pick up on his phone
I hope you find me or I'm gone

Thought I become big on this music shit
But really I feel like a bitch

Started looking for myself
N many said that I'm a snitch

I was trana be by myself
I was trana practice what I preach
But lately it ain't about the truth
It's about taking what else they teach

Maybe I'm a bitch , maybe I'm the one who's wrong
I am only trana be rich , by that I'm acting like I'm strong

I came here to get a life , I'm trana get where I belong
The only thing that I knew was making up for all my wrongs

Get me a source of income
Get me a record deal

Don't be asking how I'm doing
Don't even ask me how I feel

You not paying up my bills
You can't tell me what is real
So shut the f*ck up
N pass me that stupid pill

I'm not so bad
I'm just trying to numb the pain
I'm just trying to sell my music
Trana pay the price for fame

The whole f*cking world is sunny
But here it's only rain
Somebody pass Blunt
The only way to keep me sane

If you listening to this verse
If you listen to this song

Just know I tried my best
Just I tried to stay strong

I really do enjoy life
But this had to be the end
I'm sorry to say this
I'm tired o people saying act right

True
I'm not like this other dudes
I pit facts the fact
Gotta stop saying I'm rude

I do call your lover for some nudes
Aint ashamed of who I am bitch I'm coming from the hood

But I act like you don't see it all
React like I don't hear the call

Move like I can't play the ball
N rise like I'm just growing tall

Processed like you don't see me crawl
Blinded I can't see you all

Flourish though it's odd
Keep on climbing like I'll never fall

Pay me for a verse
I'm tired of people asking What else
I mean

It gets to me but nobody cares
I know I bought to my self it ain't even a curse I mean

Lonely I've been talking to myself
And maybe it wouldn't be this worse if I could just ask for your help

This retrospek is speaking for itself And maybe if I studied hard I wouldn't be stuck up on this mess