Outcast 20/20 - Restoration Lyrics

I know I've been through too much
I've been beat up and punched
And bullied a lot
And then they wonder why
I don't take it to heart
Took too much patience
Not mad at them
With the jacked up situation
It's the way they were raised
Yes, I was beat up in school
Even in my teens
And this is how I cope with all the anger in me
I'm here now
I don't care
About your words
That's it now
I feel like I'm gone and these girls, they just stringin' me along
I think it's time to hit it heard, yeah
I used to be married now
I got a son today
But I still know
That I'm loved
Until the day in my grave
But I still got some stuff that's on my brain
And my parents?
Well, what can I say?
They raised me right
Show me how to stay strong in my faith
But yeah, my dad did make a few mistakes
But I the most
Innocent person
That ever looked you in the face
I've done a few things
That's hard to say
But that's another story
For another verse
Bring on the chorus
I'll tell you how it gets worse...
Oh!
How can I deal
With this struggle
How do I bust
All the chains
That's causing my trouble?
How is it possible to see the light at the end of the tunnel?
I know I serve a God who's sovereign
And watches me
But sometimes I feel
Unanswered
When I'm knockin', see
How do I embrace the change
That's deep inside of me?
How do I rid
All the madness
That's deep in my stomach?
I can't do it alone
God please, restore, my soul
Now, I spoke on a lot
But that's not all
Of the pain in me
I just spoke on life
But now I gotta be real
I struggled with addiction
That had me in chains
And in bondage
I just gotta be honest
Cus I can no longer lie
And try
To be perfect
Yeah, for a while I walked a line
And embraced the curse
So many people I hurt
I know where I was a year ago
Yeah this is a miracle
I know how to cope with things
It's typical
I was mentally abused in these schools
And my music and lyrics
Was the only place
I could escape to
And worst off
While all this
Was goin' on
I found out
That I was about to loose my brother
It was Christmas Day even
I couldn't take it
My heart was still beating
Back in 2001
It still weights a ton
A few years back, actually
Same happened
To my sister
It still beats in my head
I know I'll get to see them again
I'll get to hold 'em
But it still weighs on my shoulders
Oh!
How can I deal
With this struggle
How do I bust
All the chains
That's causing my trouble?
How is it possible to see the light at the end of the tunnel?
I know I serve a God who's sovereign
And watches me
But sometimes I feel
Unanswered
When I'm knockin', see
How do I embrace the change
That's deep inside of me?
How do I rid
All the madness
That's deep in my stomach?
I can't do it alone
God please, restore, my soul
Oh!
How can I deal
With this struggle
How do I bust
All the chains
That's causing my trouble?
How is it possible to see the light at the end of the tunnel?
I know I serve a God who's sovereign
And watches me
But sometimes I feel
Unanswered
When I'm knockin', see
How do I embrace the change
That's deep inside of me?
How do I rid
All the madness
That's deep in my stomach?
I can't do it alone
God please, restore, my soul