Outliers - Heart of Ice Lyrics

Sun come find me and warm me up
Heart of Ice in need of melting and love

I used to be nice and kind
Now I've got a heart full of ice
And I don't really mind if I hurt your feelings
I'll be spilling the truth
Tired of dressing it up
And disguising the lies
The chatter around my back is getting louder
God undoing all of the secrets you decided to keep quiet
Just remember I always analyze it now

So sun come find me and warm me up
Heart of ice in need of melting and love

I may be only 20
But I've lived a life that would scar many
Physically emotionally
I've seen more blood than I care for
All of it intentional and none of it rational
Staring into gashes that'll leave yourself nauseous
Layers of skin you try to hold them tight
But they continue to keep spreading
All over the bedding
This was my fault
At least that's what I'm saying in my head
Maybe if I did something different
I could have prevented it
Someones life was in my hands
I was only 16
How the hell was I supposed to play god
For another and not get stressed
If I said something wrong
I was at risk of someone slitting their wrists
And now you hear the ambulance of in the distance
I couldn't get a grasp on reality for instance
My ears went quiet
All I could hear is my heart beating
Saying it's over
This life was in your hands and you crushed it
But wow me to figure out
It was all just a show
Methodically taking numbered pills
Knowing the retention
Just trying to get my attention
Messing with my feelings
So I apologize to anyone
I'm a little weary to put my trust in

Sun come find me and warm me up
Heart of Ice in need of melting and love

I've been frostbitten
Trying to stay warm
Making sure that I don't lose a piece of me
Making sure that I don't go black
Trying to find my way back
Feeling my chest
And the ice cold heart that lives in it.
I can feel the warmth starting to peak in
I need to let it in
I've got to end this situation
Now

Sun come find me and warm me up
Heart of ice in need of melting and love
And love
And love