Paradox - Dependency (feat. Curtin) Lyrics

Visions of different women who held my heart at attention
Back when I needed a boost to my self esteem and my image
Haunting my train of thought when I try to sleep they come visit
To tell me what I did wrong and then forcing me to relive it

Flashing back light, dances across the grass I
Bask in your magnificence leaving foot prints on cloud nine
Till they diminish and it's hard for me to feel right
From chemistry to jealousy, fantasy to real life

Somethings fishy, I smell and feel it where is she?
I fell for this shit before now I'm putting trust in my instinct
Creeping on your story who's he you tagged in your status
Oh what you think that I'm boring and wishing that you could have him?

I can see it don't talk to me like I'm crazy
You say I'm lost in my thoughts I'm not treating you like my baby
Comparing you to my ex isn't fair based when it's all a maybe
It's only right that you left I regret and know that you hate me

Yeah I can feel it in my heart
Everything I've done, is starting to leave a mark
No way, you could tell
What I cover up, I just hide it in myself

No way, they'll forget
Everything I did, shit but I need to let
Go way, too much
Young love young love young young young

Saw the cars passing debated making the action
Of jumping straight into traffic
And Uber home in a casket
Call it tragic?
I would say that "shit happens"
Pray I'm with Michael Jackson
Not decaying in satin

Goddamn, with my demons again
Had the girl of my dreams, let her slip through my hands
All of these memories on top of our many plans
Another love lost apologies in advance

Days taken medicine without chasing
Let her into my sanctum, now I'm without a home
Ironic how it unfolds, promising me her soul
To platonic and cold, is Pluto only a stone?

I grieve potential we could've had, all the possible laughs, and obstacles that we passed,
From unconditional love to slowly turning our backs
I'm not the person I was, before we started to crash

Yeah I can feel it in my heart
Everything I've done, is starting to leave a mark
No way, you could tell
What I cover up, I just hide it in myself

No way, they'll forget
Everything I did, shit but I need to let
Go way, too much
Young love young love young young young

So many women this song could've been about
From the chick with a set of twins to the one who lives in the south
Or the girl with a lot of friends who's always running her mouth
Got a few other exes sorry to leave you out

But, that's who I was can't undo what is done
All I can be is who I am only Jesus can judge
See but I feel like he'd agree with the idea of trust
Tell me to open up, stop demeaning their love

I know, I'm overbearing and self important
The portion varies I can be the sweetest, the meanest, it's really scary
Realizing my weakness and understand that I carry
A category of demons who feed upon what I bury

I got a grave that is full of my insecurities
And fall inside without realizing it's hurting me
Oh shit I think this chicks tryna flirt with me
Here we go again, she's perfect with no hyperbole

Yeah I can feel it in my heart
Everything I've done, is starting to leave a mark
No way, you could tell
What I cover up, I just hide it in myself

No way, they'll forget
Everything I did, shit but I need to let
Go way, too much
Young love young love young love