Paradox AON - Hold On Lyrics

I aint rollin through the night
Nobody's safe
Big boy fire
Got violent ways
I prayed before
I don't know if it helped
Laid down at night
I can't help myself
I think about murder
My past
My burden
Forgive me Lord cause I know my worth is beneath my surface
Almost killed myself tryna find my purpose
Know the world is hell
How much time is left
Only time will tell
Will I lose this race
Tryna keep my pace
I done lost more heart
Tryna keep mine safe
Got a couple guns at my sister's place
I can't change my ways I grind
She like Danny what's on your mind
Like I really keep thinking I'm dying
Flash backs of me crying
Cause Shorty just took that plea
And I know I'm wrong
I was guilty too
But I'm ridin round in these streets
There's no way to bring myself peace
I try so hard but I beast
I learned some shit about beef
I done kicked the dope and I see
Life for what it is
Well respected by my peers
Everybody's dying while I'm staring in this mirror
Singing

Hold on
Life aint but a dream
A violent past
I changed my ways
But some things never leave
I'm singing
Hold on
Life aint what it seems
You here one day
The next you gone
In someone's memories
I'm singing
Hold on, hold on
I just roll on, roll on
I can't waste time, no time
Stood in life's line so long
I can't let my past go and it's holding me
Something in this world has got control of me

Life and death don't understand
Kill a man for 100 bands
Long sentence for 100 grams
Check my past
I aint never ran
Me and Shorty we don't really talk
Hard to sleep when I'm in my thoughts
Kayla with me and that 40 cocked
Up in Tennessee I aint never copped
They gave me 8 years
I run them back to back
Two 8's for a drug crime
Daughters 6 and in my mind
Aint nothing to lose but a long time
Lookin at a mirror through blind eyes
Hope God hears all my cries
I can't count the times I've been baptized
Tryin to keep the faith but I don't know a way
Keep my family safe if I go away
Who gone die while I'm in this bitch
I gave a lot of love and a lot of hate
I know karma
That shit exists
I just wanna live
I don't wanna die
Murder one if they come tonight
And this America
Land of the free
I told every girl that I'd never leave
Nightmares of me shootin D's
Pain pills and amphetamines
I'll drop a tear on my enemies
F*ck the streets
I got bigger dreams
And I'm tryna get back right
I'ma pull up in black like
It's a violent life
So many crimes
I done died inside
So many times
I'm singing

Hold on
Life aint but a dream
A violent past
I changed my ways
But some things never leave
I'm singing
Hold on
Life aint what it seems
You here one day
The next you gone
In someone's memories
I'm singing
Hold on, hold on
I just roll on, roll on
I can't waste time, no time
Stood in life's line so long
I can't let my past go and it's holding me
Something in this world has got control of me