PaRan - Don't Give Up on Me Lyrics

Sometimes I lose hope in myself thinking I can't do it
Then I need someone to pick me up before I ruin it
I would already be dead if it wasn't for music
People push me to the edge, love for life I lose it
So close to saying screw this but too embarrassed to ask for help
Out of all my friends I'm probably the saddest
Nobody cares if I'm well, so I bottle it up
They recommend psychiatrists while all I want is a hug
And someone to show me that they actually care
But most don't care 'bout my life if I'm not useful in theirs
If I was dying on the floor nobody would be there
That's what I mean when I say life isn't fair
But still I know some people who I would take a bullet for
If your trust goes as deep as a grave one day they could dig yours
So be careful who you trust
And check for poison if they pour you a cup
Please don't give up on me
Cause I already gave up on myself
Pick me up if I fall
Promise you don't give up on me
Please don't give up on me
Cause I already gave up on myself
Pick me up if I fall
Promise you don't give up on me
I wish my family wouldn't judge my every move
No one gives a shit about me, my death will prove
When no one attends my funeral, empty church
Knowing you're unloved is what really hurts
And some people make sure to always show it
Like yeah you're on the ground but what's one more hit
They say pray, god will help but where's your lord at
When I'm on my knees overdosing praying for a sign
Just a waste of time, I wonder how I even survived
About 40 pills in my system how the f*ck am I alive
But I wish I wasn't, failed attempts at suicide
Can't even do that right but believe me I truly tried
Proof enough that I already gave up on myself
No wonder y'all did the same I ain't expecting no help
Maybe the only permanent thing in life is pain
'Cause when everyone's gone it will always remain
Please don't give up on me
Cause I already gave up on myself
Pick me up if I fall
Promise you don't give up on me
Please don't give up on me
Cause I already gave up on myself
Pick me up if I fall
Promise you don't give up on me
It was a mistake to think the darkness left
The voices in my head became loud and my heart deaf
The world showed me its worst side at an early age
But I should leave the past behind and turn the page
Had to be self-sufficient since I can remember
Should have ended up in crimes and disaster
Sometimes I just need someone who says: "I'm here for you"
Haven't had that since I was a year or two old
No one ever noticed me I was way too timid
If I break down in front of you I've reached my limit
You haven't been with me at my lowest point
Followed by suicide attempts, thought I didn't have a choice
Wanted to escape, no one even noticed
Even when I'm the youngest I feel like the oldest
In my circle I'm the coldest, cold you can't cover with clothes
These are my thoughts when I'm at my lowest
Please don't give up on me
'Cause I already gave up on myself
Pick me up if I fall
Promise you don't give up on me
Please don't give up on me
'Cause I already gave up on myself
Pick me up if I fall
Promise you don't give up on me