Failure (feat. Death.R2) Video (MV)

Hello?
Are you drunk again?
Listen you shouldn't be calling me anymore
You know I'm dating someone else now

I know
I'm sorry I'm calling you this late
I just have to know
Please, It consumes me
What did I do wrong?
Please, tell me I'm not a bad person

Ugh f*ck, it wasn't you
I slept with someone else okay?
I'm sorry

I'm sorry I failed you
I am to blame, babe
Said I should've held you
And relieved your pain, yeah
Won't call you or text you
Ever again babe
But if you want me to help you
Just call out my name, yeah

I know you don't love me there's nothing to hide
Now it makes sense, when I tried to kiss you and you turned to the side
With you I let go of respect and my pride
You ran over me but I do understand
I failed as a friend, as a lover, as a man
You tell me let go, move on, but don't know if I can
It's hard to let go of these thoughts I maintain
They scream and they yell in my brain
Picturing you guys together and it just brings me pain
Can't seem to accept it and out of my head
The idea of you two loving on bed
Caressing and messing your hair
Confessing you love him while gasping for air
Moaning like you did for me and all of the intimacy we once used to share
Despite that I still want a chance but you said it's different, we better as friends
Though the truth hurts I do comprehend
Cause every beginning in life has an end

I'm sorry I failed you
I am to blame, babe
Said I should've held you
And relieved your pain, yeah
Won't call you or text you
Ever again babe
But if you want me to help you
Just call out my name, yeah

I finally come to reality
I'm starting to question mortality
Between death and alive I just want to be buried
I wont be alone when I'm dead
Don't wanna live anymore with all of the shit that goes through my head
Telling me over and over again
Whats wrong?
And are you okay?
The question's the same, triggers the pain
Not feeling the blood in my veins
You could of been part of me
Red is spilling out my arteries
Cutting my heart out of me
Please stop telling me sorry
I need more than a sorry, or a sad filling story
Tell me you're playing, if so, what is the purpose
Your trembling is putting me nervous
Watering eyes knowing this is the end of us
Shame cause you took advantage of the one time I felt generous

Bruh, just pass me the bottle

I'm sorry I failed you
I am to blame, babe
Said I should've held you
And relieved your pain, yeah
Won't call you or text you
Ever again babe
But if you want me to help you
Just call out my name, yeah

Im losing my mind I'm going insane
How do I not call you when I'm drinking and smoke on your name
You don't want me on this path but it's hard to forget
Full of bad choices and full of regrets
Losing control of my anger, depression, anxiety is hard to reset
I'm speaking crazy unsubtle and you say that it's threats but I'm just upset
I talk suicidal and you say that's not me
You say that I'm smarter than that and think of my family
I don't want the everything's gonna get better talk
I just wanna know
How do I explain to my heart that I had no choice
When it cries missing your touch, your smell, and your voice
Every beat asking why did you banish
How do I explain to my heart all the damage
The embarrassment of seeing you with someone else is pure punish
Knowing he gave you what I couldn't manage
A failure as a lover consumes me in madness
I have been drowning for too long in sadness
Running across you and seeing what you have established
Breaks every time knowing you have the advantage
I wanna stop feeling this burn in my heart and tremble every time when I panic
Get rid of the blade and get rid of the bandage
I gotta move on so this my last passage
I loved you