PassionLust - Worse Lyrics

I cant believe that I waited for so long for someone to change
I gave you my love, and my stories and it was so easy for you to just switch up the page
F*ck love and all the people that thought at one point I was a whore
I'll become what you want me and worse than before
I will be worse
I will be worse
Why do I wait
Why do I feel all this weight
Why am I feeling this way
Awake at night, and sleep all day
Why do I stay
I'm not the same
I know that I've l changed
Someone new I've became
Thanks to your lies my life has arranged
I know it seems strange
I only have rage
F*ck all confusion and f*ck all the fake
I gave you my love, yours was all vague
All you ever did was take and take and take
It was never enough
Now I just bluff
Single to fix all my stuff
Getting my shit back together and back on the road
F*ck your forever if you left me alone
I cant believe that I waited for so long for someone to change
I gave you my love, and my stories and it was so easy for you to just switch up the page
F*ck love and all the people that thought at one point I was a whore
I'll become what you want me and worse than before
I will be worse
I will be worse
Now I'm a hoe and blame it on you
Im never home
I became you
I finally understand your point of view
I was just weak now I'm hard to inflict
I'm tired of me
F*ck being me
F*ck all these problems that didn't let me be
Don't fall in love
I finally see
Life was better when I didn't care
Back to the lifestyle of single and affairs
Smoking a blunt while f*cking a bitch that I don't care to share
I'm conscious unconscious it's hard to compare
I simply stare
My body is present but I am not there
My soul is dead
Drinking to let go of pain
A hole in my head to finally let go of these thoughts I contain
Tell me why I'm waiting
For someone
That couldn't give a f*ck about me
I f*cking hate you
I don't wanna love you
I wanna regret you
I just wanna hug you
I just wanna hold you
I take back everything that I told you
Nah
No
I keep thinking of all the good times
I need to remember you didn't let me shine
When you'd put me down
When you screamed at me and let me drown
In all of my tears cause you'd let me cry
You'd treat me like shit and left me to die
From the beginning, all you ever did was lie
I didn't wanna see, I even denied
I even felt guilt and put down my pride
The only thing I feel now is anger inside
I know for a fact once again, I'll cross through your mind
When you feel the love and he treats it the way you treated mine
Searching for me in him realizing compassion is so hard to find