Medicine Video (MV)

I was striving to be perfect hating on my imperfections
Deep inside I had been hurt but wouldn't let myself express it
Came a time I was convinced that I was God in my own presence
I was caught up in the power all while dimming in my essence
Wasn't conscious of the toxic ass ideas I filled my head with
While embarking on a path that was much different than my message
A false prophet I appeared and I began to feel rejected
How'd I wind up at the bottom of this hill I just ascended
Breaking hearts and making enemies my ties so many severed
I had moved so far from grace life was the opposite heaven
I was spiteful I had vengeance and my thoughts were so conflicted
I despised my own existence and I fought hard not to end it
Help it make sense to me
Product of the things I know and all that I'll ever see
How I'm messing up this much when I'm just trynna be free
How I end up this corrupted when in God I believe
Got me looking at the world like what you got against me
Got me looking at myself like why you my enemy
Times I contemplated death with no desire to breathe
All that's weighing on my mental really just want some peace kapeesh
Lost in my mind how far will I go
I'm losing sight of my heart and my soul
Was freezing and cold so deep in that hole
Wandered how deep do it go
Karma unleashed on my soul
Haunted by demons like ghost
Lost belief in the lord that's where my dream was destroyed
Thought that my peace wouldn't restore
Finally found peace in the lows
Found decency slow and how to treat other souls
How to leave evils alone and that to each is his own
And how to eat on my on and how to keep moving on
That's to the beat of my own shit
Found out who my peeps is for sure
Right now y'all the only reason I believe in hope
Very grateful to be I'm back on my feet feeling whole
I think that right there's gone always be reason to toast one more
Found out who my peeps is for sure
Right now y'all the only reason I believe in hope
Very grateful to be I'm back on my feet feeling whole
I think that right there's gone always be reason to toast
Help it make sense to me
Product of the things I know and all that I'll ever see
How I'm messing up this much when I'm just trynna be free
How I end up this corrupted when in God I believe
Got me looking at the world like what you got against me
Got me looking at myself like why you my enemy
Times I contemplated death with no desire to breathe
All that's weighing on my mental really just want some peace kapeesh
Lost in my mind how far will I go
I'm losing sight of my heart and my soul