Paul Willis - Vanishing Lyrics

Need an adrenaline rush from a feminine touch
Stuck when the one you love ain't the one you lust
Finding ways to trust, a light touch, a small tug
Addicted like a drug when drugs wasn't enough
Now I'm cruising down Florin, rain pourin, hit the switch
Highs to lows, I pick and flip, looking to hit and quit
Got a 40 for the shorty looking to kiss the tip
Use the tip to pay her pimp, tuition and her rent
What's worse selling your soul or committing a sin
Come between her hips, using lighters to kill the stench
When's the moment when what's real isn't what you intend
Seeing what you did or saying what you meant
If I had a blessing for every dollar that I spent
I'd be cursed with every release of the me within

But I'm fortunate enough to be woken up
I'm fortunate enough to be woken up
I'm fortunate enough to be woken up
I'm fortunate enough to be woken up

Blinded by the green in the city of trees
People come for what they want and take more than what they need
Pride goes unseen but you know it by voice
Concerned when you're not facing a challenging choice
If you had a chance to succeed at levels never achieved
Would you believe in yourself or believe in a guarantee
Ego mixed with greed is never what it seems
If ambition is the root, it must've started from a seed
I plead with the city proppin up a rotten tree
My eyes bleed when the leaves threaten to chop the tree
Trees can still thrive when its roots are connected
To other trees who won't let it die or be disrespected
Get the message, healing starts with the roots
Eve had the knowledge before eating the fruit

But I'm fortunate enough to be woken up
I'm fortunate enough to be woken up
I'm fortunate enough to be woken up
I'm fortunate enough to be woken up

Rubbing my red eyes, watching you sleep
Underneath a white sheet, triggering something deep
Slow creep, past the parking lot, grippin a heat
Cold sweat down my cheek, never sweatin this teck-nique
Will I ever be forgiven for these sins I'm committin
Seeing you bed-ridden, facing a real life sentence
Tough decision, pulling the plug on a person you love
I'll take your place if it meant keeping you from above
I've had enough of going through hell on earth
I'd give it up if your life expels this hurt
Know what I want is to kill, even if myself
Seeing you hurt hurts, I wish you well
Wish you happiness and peace in a land I'll never see
Inshallah, the grace of God, though she ignores me
Death resides in the afterlife, before life is love
Don't wanna let you go but I'm stuck

But I'm fortunate enough to be woken up
I'm fortunate enough to be woken up
I'm fortunate enough to be woken up
I'm fortunate enough to be woken up