Paycheck - Trapped Lyrics

How many times I gotta tell you
That I'm doin' fine
For you to stop asking me?
I'm losin' my mind!
I love every single minute
Spending time with friends
When I say friends, I mean friends
Not a friendship that bends
It's lonely here, I'm in a cell
It feels so cold, what is this hell?
I need help, I cannot yell
I fear my own fear, oh well
A broken heart is worthless
If you don't have the will to fix it
I've been tryna find a way to cope
I think this is it
Judge me all you want
But you won't get attention
At least not from me
Please dont break the surface tension
I know that this tape's a mess
Thoughts scattered all about
But that's what Abstract is
And I know without a doubt, that
As I write these words, I'm close to tears
Never been able to say what's on my mind for 14 years
At least not in this way, being judged by my peers
I'll go back to my room, just me and my fears
As they torment me they laugh n' I scream
And then I wake up
And it was all just a dream
You push, you pull
I toss, I turn
My fear inside
Oh how it hurt!
I said, you push, you pull
I toss, I turn
My fear inside
Oh how it hurt!