Pearl - Methamphetamines Lyrics

We were wondering the desert
Like it's been 40 days and 40 nights
And I still ain't been treating right
Well I can hear what he don't say in his voice
He says, "Baby girl, you need a man instead of a little boy."

I was only 19
He was high on methamphetamines
But he'd drop, drop anything for me
I believe that's true
And I ended up stuck in a trailer park with a drunk that would get mean and wouldn't get clean for me

So do I dream about what it would be
If I was with him and he was with me

He loved me though he never had me
He showed me what I deserve
I often think about him and hope he's happy with her
He never touched me
He never felt my skin
He loved me though he never had me
I'll never feel so loved again

In and out of rehab he went
Little luck and letters sent
And a whole lotta money spent
I'm still using in lack of better words
Givin' everything I got and gettin' nothing in return

Before it was over
He did good and got sober
And I saw him from time to time
He moved out east with a girl he got clean with
Who relapsed real fast after that

What if I was with him
And he was with me

He loved me though he never had me
He showed me what I deserve
I often think about him and hope he's happy with her
He never touched me
He never felt my skin
He loved me though he never had me
I'll never feel so loved again

We were parked on the side of the street
He said, "Sometimes I wonder if she really loved me, would she quit?"
And then it hit me
If my man back home really cared, why don't he?
We sat in silence just staring ahead
Both with lovers that don't give a damn

He loved me though he never had me
He showed me what I deserve
I often think about him and hope he's happy with her
He never touched me
He never felt my skin
He loved me though he never had me
I'll never feel so loved again
Loved again
Loved again
Oh he never touched my lips
Never touched my skin
I'll never feel so loved again

I was only 19
He was high on methamphetamines