I Usually Solve Problems By Letting Them Devour Me Video (MV)

From the moment I first saw you I said to myself,
I don't think that I could ever love anybody else
Was that love at first sight or just my poor mental health
Probably a little bit of both, but I guess only time would tell
And either way I bought into the self imposed myth
That if it wasn't for you, then I wouldn't exist
The type of love that I had searched for since I was a little kid
And through rose colored glasses I ignored your red flag list
But now I cannot forget you. why can't I just forget you
And the thing I actually do forget sometimes is that you're not the first
I've done this before but with people objectively worse
I treat them like a lifeline instead of a curse
Or a nail in my coffin in the back of a hearse
So now I'm wondering through the streets of Amsterdam
Just trying to remember who I even am
And I'm so high right now that I probably shouldn't stand
But if this is the end who really even gives a damn (not me)
You were the apple of my eye
You were the time I really tried
You were the safest place to hide
You were the thorn deep in my side
And now with thoughts of our demise in the back of my head
In a far away land as I'm lying in bed
I had convinced myself that if I ever lost you then I would just end up dead
But now I just can't forget all of those things that you said
And I'll never regret you but why can't I forget you
Why can't I forget
Why can't I forget
Why can't I forget