Finding Composure Video (MV)

I don't wanna tell you 'bout the different sides me
The sides I try to hide and the sides that no one sees
I hide behind a facade to make everyone believe
But it holds me under water
Suffocating, I can't breathe
I don't wanna tell you 'bout the different sides me
The sides I try to hide and the sides that no one sees
I hide behind a facade to make everyone believe
But it holds me under water
Suffocating, I can't breathe
I need to find composure
Let me cut off all distractions
You say you're sorry
But it don't mean shit without actions
Please don't hit me up like the fallout didn't happen
Cuz I don't wanna tell you anything
That's been happening
Should I let you go or should I try and hold on
To the past, bury all of my pain into a song
It's 4 A.M. my body's tired
Even then I barely sleep
My thoughts race, I think through
All you said to me
You've been withdrawn from everyone you're tryna fix this
I'm sadly great at holding grudges
I won't lie I miss this
I'm weighing both side and honestly I don't know
I'm scared of moving forward
Yeah I'm scared of the unknown
I know I prolly should but it's hard to just let go
I'm scared of all things that are out my control
If you listen to my songs
I sound like a broken record
I know I have problems
But I can't seem to get better
It's easier to blame all of my problems on depression
Ima shutdown
I can't deal with all with all this pressure
Gray skies, rain clouds, every day now
They hover over me
And I can't find a way out
Gray skies, rain clouds, every day now
Toxic for each other
Suffering from the fall out
Dark days, cold nights, watch the snow fall
Dark days, cold nights, watch the snow fall down
I don't like to feel now feeling's not an option
So when I have to feel, I only feel with caution
Gray skies, rain clouds, every day now
They hover over me
And I can't find a way out
Dark days, cold nights, watch the snow fall
Dark days, cold nights, watch the snow fall down