Character Actor Video (MV)

It's not gonna end any different tonight
If you spend it pinned to the wall
But we're live and it'd be social suicide
And someone's always quicker on the draw
No second take if you forget your lines
If you do say anything at all
But if you're waiting on the stars to align
Then you're fighting for a lost cause
Well at least I can say that I went out last night
And so everyone can stop worrying about me
Having fun making friends like you're all supposed to
The drink's overpriced and it's too loud to talk to
The people around on the light-up floor
Know I'll never be one of them anyway
Good thing there are ways to drown my denial
To build myself up and fall flat on my face
Should I lower my expectations?
Am I coming on too strong?
Can they smell the desperation on me?
I feel the panic coming on
It's not about getting off with the nearest stranger
Or about me finding my future bride
I just wanna feel normal in this place for once here
For something worthwhile to come out of tonight
Have a problem with breaking character
When they say "his arms and legs are thin"
It feels like the end of everything
I've heard voices die when I get to speak
Crickets chirping and tumbleweed
I guess it's how I'll always be
Can't grow into or out of this
No I'm not Prince Hamlet it wasn't meant to be
I'm someone with even less sense of agency
A supporting player glad to be of use
Get the odd line, start a scene or two
Right now you smile and stand so tall
But you'll find a way to screw up soon
Yeah I'm the joke that you're laughing at
And you're the guise I see straight through
Should I lower my expectations?
Am I coming on too strong?
Can they smell the desperation on me?
Am I doing everything wrong?
It's not about getting off with the nearest stranger
Or about me finding my future bride
I just wanna feel normal in this place for once here
To walk home not feel dead inside
Never liked smoke and mirrors and flashing bright lights
It's why they always go for some other guy
Trying to lose myself and live for once
Do what everyone else my age is doing right
Should I lower my expectations?
Am I coming on too strong?
Can they smell the desperation on me?
Am I doing everything wrong?
It's not about getting off with the nearest stranger
Or about me finding my future bride
I just wanna feel normal in this place for once here
For something worthwhile to come out of tonight
No I don't feel anything for her now
And it would've never happened anyway
So it looks like you're stuck with me a bit longer
Well I'll try my best to start over again