Melancholy Video (MV)

Goddamn i think i'm starting to lose sight
I can barely feel my conscious I can't tell wrong from right
I been speaking on this for long I don't know what's left to write,
Everyday a different battle but i live a day to fight
Ohh Yaa
I been trapped inside this melancholy
Swear a nigga lost up in this melancholy
I been trapped inside this melancholy
Feeling like i'm lost up in this melancholy
I'm introverted
Been self destructive
Been suicidal
I know the cycle
Passive aggressive
Since an adolescent
Never learned my lesson
Hurt been domestic
Pain been invested
Help I neglected
I know i'm reckless
But i'm here regardless
Soul departed since my heart parted
Now i'm back to being stone cold and heartless
All my verses been picture perfect
Direct depiction from my minds infliction
My soliloquy
My offendeth thee,
But you don't understand this my remedy
Beets being drunk daily off of Hennessy
Beats banging loud like the scent of Buddha leaves
I do not f*ck with no negative energies
But sometimes my demons take a hold of me
I can't help it
Sheesh
Watchu want from me
Evide-ently
There's a vacancy
And hearts been seized
And my brains been fried
May seem like i'm alive
But i'm dead inside
This my menacing side
And i'm tired of trying
My lights been dimmed
And i cannot find the switch to be flipped up right
Real talk no lie
I seem like a pissy pessimist
But I did not ask for this
When i itch i scratch way beyond the surface
And i'm certain
I may never escape all this hurting
Is all this worth it
Feeling worthless
Like i lost my purpose man
Goddamn i think i'm starting to lose sight
I can barely feel my conscious I can't tell wrong from right
I been speaking on this for long I don't know what's left to write,
Everyday a different battle but i live a day to fight
Ohh Yaa
I been trapped inside this melancholy
Swear a nigga lost up in this melancholy
I been trapped inside this melancholy
Feeling like i'm lost up in this melancholy
This is what it sounds like
When the sunlight's gone
And you're up alone in your room
Now you don't know what to do 'cause your slumbers been ruined
Happens every-night with no improvement
Lost in your thoughts now your rage is brewing
This is that heartless
I do not walk among earthlings
Been to deadseas swam around them serpents
So your petty waves do not concern me
Surly
This shit is sinister
This shit is purge
This is that think that shit but never heard
A walking enigma just roaming the earth
Got me thinking that depression was worth it
Demons been taunting and haunting and lurking
Hell being raised like my bodies a furnace
Family worried
They think i'm bumming
But they don't know that the kid been up to something
No drums on the verses so you hear me clearly
Mental unstable man i'm feeling weary
Life has been crazy since i was a preteen
The depths that i been to been scary
Nothing I do seems to help with the numbness
This is my real life I am not speaking in jest
Or simply just to gain attention and interest
I had to get this off my chest
Fore I'm at peace with my rest
I'll be the first to attest
I'm lost in this wilderness
And I do not know whats next
Goddamn i think i'm starting to lose sight
I can barely feel my conscious I can't tell wrong from right
I been speaking on this for long I don't know what's left to write,
Everyday a different battle but i live a day to fight
Ohh Yaa
I been trapped inside this melancholy
Swear a nigga lost up in this melancholy
I been trapped inside this melancholy
Feeling like i'm lost up in this melancholy