ptl - Failure Lyrics

I f*cking hate your basic style of suicide
Zero-sum game
You're the only one to blame
I said I fear a lonely death
But my death to loneliness is my only fear, I said
Blank apology - I would love to borrow three
But can I trust these cunts when I tell them 'promise me?'
Such a f*cking waste of time
And space and air
And taste and care
And face and hate

I'm just binary, just strings
Just atoms, just pixels
So violently, ears ring
Relaxing, I miss this
Go quietly, listen
I've captured the witness
Non-silently, it begins
Old masters, new systems
It seems so abstract how you don't believe me
Minute after minute I still get that feeling
It seems so abstract how you don't believe me
Minute after minute I still get that feeling

Climb, close your eyes, stay calm
Ever since I've been a failure
Ever since I've been your failure
Climb, close your eyes, stay calm
Ever since I've been a failure
Ever since I've been your failure

Mental issues leave its scar tissues
As my theorems turn to deliriums
It's not a case of this or that
Or how or when
Or where or why
Or what or who
Counting backwards, when will I reach negative?
Here's my confessions and don't redact the expletives
Not enough time is left
I'm blind and deaf and 50 seconds till I'm dead

I'll never be a cunting failure
I'll never be your cunting failure