Punk - Dope Kid Lyrics

I'm so alone I think it's time for a change
But I can't relax or change the past till I start clearing my name
Cuz all these memories raise higher and higher until they crash
Like wave of insecurities stabbing me in the back, aye
404, the page is never recovered
Because it's yet to be written
I try to write down my thoughts
But they are constantly slipping
Into a void, but buried beneath my mind
In the darker lower levels
They'll linger until I die
Yeah I'm a dope kid
Reminiscing about a youngin
With his life all figured out
But then watched it all fade to nothing
Pull the stem and send the smoke
Up rushing into his brain
Fueled by the pain of knowing his life may never change
Behind the curtains, unimportant, a coward who'd rather die
He hides beneath his covers as demons invade his mind
Always praying to a god that never seems to reply
The stain that still remains in his frozen metallic eyes
Now I combine the intermediate feeling to second guess
With that of feeling burdened, or swallowed by my regret
I've been thrown into a corner, and struggle to even fight
I've been dancing with the devil in darkness without a light
Too often I feel so worthless
My purpose is hard to find
The promise that I've been given
Has led me to my demise
I'm drinking into decisions
That haunt me when I'm asleep
I water down all these emotions
That strangle me as I breathe
Now I'm sorry to the people that love me
And that's a fact, yeah
I thought I lost my ways
But man, slowly I'm coming back
I can't hope these tables turn
So I'm turning them in my favor
Hope this hopeless form of anger can lead me to something greater
Yeah, I hope that my creations are making my parents proud
Bitch, I hope I get so high that I struggle to come back down
Looking down on the earth, from my kingdom up in the clouds
Day dreaming of a tomorrow, where sorrow is never found
Yeah I'm a dope kid
Reminiscing about a youngin
With his life all figured out
But then watched it all fade to nothing
Pull the stem and send the smoke
Up rushing into his brain
Fueled by the pain of knowing his life may never change
Behind the curtains, unimportant, a coward who'd rather die
He hides beneath his covers as demons invade his mind
Always praying to a god that never seems to reply
The stain that still remains in his frozen metallic eyes
Aye, please tell me that it's okay
To watch the world that you created burning brighter as your soul fades
Please tell me that it's alright
To find some comfort in destruction
And solace within the lies
That you've been fed since you were little
An itch you could never scratch
The hour glass it slowly empties as the truth hides
These feelings don't lie
These feelings can't lie
It's time to wake up, wake up, and let your world die
Yeah I'm a dope kid
Reminiscing about a youngin
With his life all figured out
But then watched it all fade to nothing
Pull the stem and send the smoke
Up rushing into his brain
Fueled by the pain of knowing his life may never change
Behind the curtains, unimportant, a coward who'd rather die
He hides beneath his covers as demons invade his mind
Always praying to a god that never seems to reply
The stain that still remains in his frozen metallic eyes