[ Featuring Amber Navran, Phylicia Rashad ]
I don't wanna say goodbye
Baby
I don't wanna say goodbye
Can't let you go
I'll take the wrong way home (yeah)
I know that you come 'round
I keep an eye on every place
Just to care
I can't let you go
The hardest thing to do is to lose
My greatest fear is death
I was raised a Jehovah's Witness
Yesterday, I went home, I was helping my mom with her
Her talk for the theocratic ministry school, and she read
"There's nothing to fear because the dead know nothing"
I told her I wanna know everything
I want to feel, I wanna be alive
It's too good
Even though the world is so bad
We love too deep to really ever be at peace, you know?
With the ones that have past (I can't let you go)
I saw a nigga yesterday, Jadon and Kendall were with me
She said, I mean she told 'em, "Thank you for my card"
It made me cry
I don't know why, I just, I break out and cry every day
I said that's okay, it just means you're alive
You feel, you feel deeply
But is it?
(I don't wanna say goodbye)
We shouldn't have to feel pain or hurt really (baby)
I have to try and release that ocean of sadness every day
How long she gonna have to cry before she's okay
(I don't wanna say goodbye)
I miss her happy tears
(I can't let you go)
I miss having more happy days in the balance (I take the wrong way home)
2020 was a doozy (I know that you come 'round)
It was like blow after blow after blow
A lot of people lost a lot of people (I keep an eye on every place)
A lot of people had to tap into a lot of bad memories
(Just to care, I can't let you go)
Then we continued our talk and she told me how much
She fights to remember sometimes
She say, "You know, I got a lil' spell of Alzheimer's"
You're back
Yes, I am back
Sit, let me see this head of yours
Mm, look at all this growth
Do you see it?
A lot of growin'
Mm-hmm
So much
Just like this hair, the only way we can live is if we grow
And we grow because we change
And we change because we have learned, baby
We have been exposed
Yes
And the only way that we become exposed is if we throw ourselves out into the open
But you know that now
I do know that, I do
So what is real and what is illusion, my love?
Whatever I choose to believe
