By Myself (Overload) Video (MV)

Thinking of the times that I avoided sleep
Nights terrors come vivid, That's when the voices speak, Seeping in to poison me
Mama, I feel this void in me, Eating my soul
Did I disappoint you enough by straying off of this road
Where were these losses started? The day that my father's soul departed
Or predisposed genetic codes that set me off, I'm guarded
I can't impart it, I hate it, Breaking till I'm lethargic
Unresponsive, Everything I feel's chaotic
Know where I'm faulted, Obsessive and highly pedantic
I'm so detached, That family don't really understand it
Wild card, Shy, But a wild boy
Kino and Royce, They had to check me like strategic boards
I was a demon kid, Forcing me to be a man
Blocked the pain I had to bury, Till I drink again
Another bottle, Another glass, Another toilet trip
Another night of flashbacks, I'm so over this
Time and time again, I see your corpse I gave a kiss, And said Goodbye to you
Waking up and I would cry for you
Get high for you, Look into the sky for you
Disappointed, I ain't see a single sign of you
SO TELL ME WHERE THE FUCK AM I SUPPOSED TO GO FROM HERE, HUH
HOW THE FUCK AM I SUPPOSED TO HOLD THE TEARS, WHY
It all comes crashing in a moment
My composure gone, I need a moment or I'll overload

Just another blank page, When the love fades
And these chains take hold of me
They keep me down down, Don't wanna stand out
So the past won't notice me
Ain't got a place now, Cause I was cast out
Why am I so lo-ne-ly
I'm feelin down down, Another round round
So this ain't overloadin me

Be positive King, (Uh) Don't crack on the scene, Uh huh
Take a second to breathe, (That's right) Get back on your feet
Out the back of the seat, Now you driving this thing
They call it arrogance, I call it The Rules to Succeed
Was on the road to making greatness, Or I thought I was
Strayed away from who the f*ck I thought that I'd become
To my family's unintentional damage
That unconventional anguish, These repercussions, Ain't plan it
I done figured out, That all them niggas that's chasin clout
Bout as hollow as liquor bottles they emptied out
Am I the same in this moment that's unexplained
The focus is unretained, No longer the one to blame
What they made me out? How I'm branded unstable now
Shou Tucker how they acting like I'm labeled now
It all comes crashing in a moment while I'm in the zone
I need a moment or I'll overload