Ray Natsuki - Inner Thoughts Lyrics

Dad was almost gone before I hit one
6 Shots he took the whole gun
Came from nothin shout to Itica
I do this shit for my brothers and sisters

Only Certain people you can trust
But you gotta put up a boundary
This is how I feel while they clowin me
Always in my bag silently
Smiling the pain keeps findin me

Never know when past shit sees the light
Stay makin mistakes come back to bite
Say it's alright but I'm tight gotta give you advice
And tell my problems to go say night night

Problem is I stay keepin shit inside of me
Never let it out then let people confide in me
Never say no so don't lie to me
That I wasn't there all the time to see
What you turn out to be

Bro

I wanna a girl but I'm terrified
They gotta match my own expectations
Nowadays niggas don't do ships, relations
Leave my heart at home right on to the pavement

I am confused about life
I don't know what to do
My mind is twisting around
I'm gettin sick got the flu

Asthma is kicking in I can't breathe
Trying harder and harder but I still wheeze
Down to one knee And I scream god please!

What the f*ck am I doin?
This what I am for a human?
Niggas draggin feet thought I was crusin
Niggas sinkin down cause I'm still brusin

Everything confusin I really bout to backdown
Let my younger siblings take over the world that's facts now
Niggas gettin washed away by a big tide
Niggas wanna sit in the corner and say goodbye

My sisters and brothers just know that I adore you
I'll pull up one of these days
Just for a second I'll find out a way
Got my blood with family I don't play! I don't play!

Dad and I went back and forth talkin bout values
Pent up anger got me blowin steam on some different shit
Shit kept building up to the top kept makin foul moves
My bro had to hold me down cause I was screamin gettin pissed

Shit was stackin up
I made mistakes
Me and my dad call each other fake
There's only so much I can take
Screamed you did nothin for me while I ache

Mom almost kicked me out
If you don't change your route
Go to dad wit that mouth
Ask your dad for that pouch
Since he's rich wit that clout
I did nothin all foul

We was off stamps
Momma had laid off her plans
Survival we had to set up the camp
Moved in with my grandmother and my aunt
Single mother did all she can