RDM - alone Lyrics

Sometimes I wanna live
Sometimes I wanna die
Sometimes I wanna cry
But I never wanna smile
I wanna be alone I'm feelin' tired and dead inside
I don't answer on my phone an' I never dial

I'm trynna be strong but it's wearin' on my soul
My body breaking down I can feel it in my bones
I've been there for everyone but they all left when I got low
Tried so hard to fix my life but always find a darker road
I'm stuck inside this home, it's dark and I'm alone
Got walls I can't break down, past trauma got me broke
Burnin' fire all around as my life goes up in smoke
The marijuana burns, I'm slowly losin' hope

Sometimes I wanna live
Sometimes I wanna die
Sometimes I wanna cry
But I never wanna smile
I wanna be alone I'm feelin' tired and dead inside
I don't answer on my phone an' I never dial

I don't answer on my phone an' I never dial
Karma for my past sins, I can never smile

Feeling broken, my life is f*ckin' hopeless
Sippin' on codeine smoking weed to numb emotion
Nobody understand me, say I'm wastin' my life
Bitch you don't even know me, what goes on in my mind
I'm dyin' inside, I just want you to know
Wish I could die by your side, got nobody to hold
Might be dyin' tonight, took too much I'm alone
Another night getting high, walk this road on my own

Sometimes I wanna live
Sometimes I wanna die
Sometimes I wanna cry
But I never wanna smile

Sometimes I wanna live
Sometimes I wanna die
Sometimes I wanna cry
But I never wanna smile
I wanna be alone I'm feelin' tired and dead inside
I don't answer on my phone an' I never dial

I don't answer on my phone an' I never dial
Karma for my past sins, I can never smile
Dreams of bein' found dead alone in my room
Pills in my hand, layin' still turnin blue

Sorry mom and dad, what the f*ck did I do?
What the f*ck did I do?
What the f*ck did I do?