Reality - Close (feat. Alex M Brinkley) Lyrics

Did it have a purpose?
Messin up was it worth it
Being pulled undersurface
All in know is everything i try to do i fail cuz i fell into this burden
Now whatcha gonna do?
I hurt myself when you warned me
I kept forgetting everything that you told me
Now i feel like i'm stuck fighting the old me

My heart is on fire
Man i'm thinking that whole time it was thrown in hell
I'm confusing myself
Throwing grace like a game in itself
Evil holdin me down while im screaming help
I don't know what i'm seeing right now
Cuz i been blinded by leading myself
I need you close
God should I believe any lies that they tell
Falling so ain't no picking it up
Too late he's already tearing it up
You still thinking im makin it up
I'm sitting here now begging to run
Pain is now
Stuck with me, ain't no way that i could thank it enough
Overdosing in my head
I'm now convinced to start taking the drugs

Cuz i know that i can overcome
Everything that i know i've become
Memories hurt and its standing in front
Of me, my life its holding a grudge
Against the one who said that He loved
Me even if im never enough
Someone scary i locked in a cell
Cuz Im too scared, what if i'm hid myself?

I need you so close
Just hold me here no don't let go
I need you so close

I need you so close
Just hold me here no don't let go
I need you so close

Searching but there's no hope left
Your shoes ain't fit in mine yet
If you cross that line you'll find that
I'm paying my past with my death
Broken heart is what I spotted
I'm scared of my past so I locked it
You wanna come inside like it's amusing
If you unlock my past I'ma lose it

It's breaking apart ripping apart
You really telling me I shouldn't never took it this far
That's actually why I hid from the start
Whether if I'm angry or not thinking or not

When I walk in a room they making a plot
Making sure Im not escaping this side
If I stay here they'll put chains in my mind
Making me leave who I am behind
Foggy life I can't see any light
Dark in here hoping that I survive
I Don't know when I run outta time

You told me I gotta stay strong just wait a while God
How long? it feels like i'm far from your heart but

You can do what you decide you can leave me behind
And if you let me go then what's the point of life huh?

I need you so close
Just hold me here no don't let go
I need you so close

I need you so close
Just hold me here no don't let go
I need you so close