To be besides oneself is an unusual feeling Notably so when it has lasted for so long
It's been a mess so far
You've only gone so far
It's been a wreck so far
You've never gone so far
So far failing, I've been falling
In the distance, I hear the calling
Do I wanna do it, do it for the music
Do it for the people that feel useless
I've been a drunk addicted to drugs
Addicted to sex just looking for love
Pop another pill feel like jelly roll
My is heart cold probably cause hell has froze
Where are the facts where is the truth
Feel like the walking dead
Heading to the tomb
Life is but a dream don't tell me your woke
You sounding like a sheep & you sport a shiny coat
What am I do to let all y'all know
Something coming true like words I spoke
Put my heart & soul in every bar I wrote
My scars are quots and from mars I've rose
It's been a mess so far
You've only gone so far
It's been a wreck so far
You've never gone so far
How would I explain that I seen it coming
Some things just a curse hope I free me from'em
Bruh is just absurd I know you thinking of it
Discuss it like some birds a pair of keets or something
A paradigm shift
A paradise slit
That don't make sense
You weren't there & I'm sick
Hold up bring it back
Sorry wish I could
I would say my bad
But this is my good
Self expression self exalting
Self deprecation self exhausting
Self destructive selfish Rocky
He lit the match and hell was costly
But this a resurrection of everything I could be
Better yet lemme go ahead and say it should be
When I really focus clarity of what it would be
It's been a mess so far
You've only gone so far
It's been a wreck so far
You've never gone so far
Dont be so hard on yourself kid
I know what it's like to be your own critic
Battle myself every day
Somedays I cant look in the mirror
Bring me back to the time
Before I was at war with my mind
I hate myself but I love myself
Need to get back to skating get on the grind
Make that money take that money
It's not the root but it is the vine
I heard through the grape vine
That I'll have a great life
I just need to take time
Notice what's aligned
So misunderstood
What is this to you
I hope things get better
I hope I'm getting through
Meaning in the static time to get in tune
Thinking's been sporadic am I just a loon