Reminiscing Video (MV)

I'm sitting, reminiscing 'bout the days when I was bitching
About a hard life, but didn't really know the difference
Or meaning of a dollar, I ain't understand it fully
I understood you worked for it, that ain't mean shit to me
What was I to do?
I was too focused on school
Even though I never had aspirations of a college
I just wanted to make my Parents happy, f*ck some dollars
When in reality, I'm sure they both preferred a job
To help them with the bills and also keep the lights on
"But Mom and Dad, this music shit is what my mind's on"
They was both my biggest fans
Now that one of them has passed
I feel alone up on that stage even though the venue's packed
I miss the phone calls afterwards like, "you won't believe this, Dad!"
"They were all screaming my songs! They were standing, shouting chants"
And now that he is gone, afterwards I'm in my head
I don't wanna go out and celebrate, I just wanna lay in bed
Yeah
But then this voice inside my head says, "pitty parties don't pay the bills"
So I play my part and I tag along just to block out how I really feel
Nowadays I'm getting good at that
I mean, I'm still good, but I feel bad on some days like others do
You like me and I'm like you
We more alike than others think
Life is precious, gone in a blink
Don't slow down, 'cause it'll pass you by
You might not even get to say, "bye"
That's the way that this life goes
Y'all be thinking 'bout life goals
I be thinking 'bout how my family doing, how my Mother feeling, how my Sister dealing with this pain
Most the time overthink so damn much that it starts to hurt my Brain
Today I got in contact with my therapist again, it's time to make a change
They don't know what I go through
They just know that I'll make it through
I prayed for them, they don't pray for you
'Cause in the end, it is only you
They don't know what I go through
They just know that I'll make it through
I prayed for them, they don't pray for you
'Cause in the end, it is only you
It's only me
I be growing on my own, ain't nobody pushing me
I realized I had to do that after heart break
I'd never dealt with that before, so it was like a 'Quake
Shaking up my World
I had to realize I no longer had my Girl
Thankfully we ended on a positive note
But, I'd be lying if I said it didn't sting though
Walking through my life like everything is great
When in reality my mind is far away from bay
It's feeling like I'm drowning, is somebody gonna pray? Woo!
They don't know what I go through
They just know that I'll make it through
I prayed for them, they don't pray for you
'Cause in the end, it is only you
They don't know what I go through
They just know that I'll make it through
I prayed for them, they don't pray for you
'Cause in the end, it is only you