Last Goodbye Video (MV)

Yeah
Feeling like I don't fit
All the things I said
I wish I could retract it
Head malfunctions
I can tell that I'm a glitch
Was everything I've been through
Leading me to this

Just a disappointment
Tears pouring down my face
I need a new way to vent
Broken everything around me
Never my intent
I'm stating nothing new
I know that y'all have heard this
Spreading through my body
Living like a virus

Everything wrong
And I really can't hide this
Getting dressed
With a closet full of disguises
Beat myself up
Till my body's laying lifeless
I remember a time
Where my life was never like this

Wasn't easy
Wasn't this bad
Bombs drop on me
Like I live in Baghdad
When I least see it coming
I'm hit with humiliation
Feeling out of place
Is becoming my religion

Doubting myself
And every one of my decisions
Cut me wide open
Make a huge incision
As of everyday i'm more suicidal
Livin in America
But'll never be an idol

When I'm out of breath
Don't bother checking vitals
Tried so hard to be good
But i'll never see the light tho
Life told me a truth
In telling me it's a lie
Even when i'm here to stay
I wanna say my last goodbye

Alone
In my mind
(Is anybody out there)
Alone
All the time
(Please is anybody out there)
Alone
Waiting for the last goodbye

Yeah
Ticking
Ticking
Ticking
My life timer's ticking
Growing up
I imagined things so different
Make a list of all the things
I shouldn't
Couldn't
Wouldn't do
I lose it when I speak to you
I lose it when I look at you
I lose it when I think of ending
Contemplating life without you
And i'm sure you think about it to
Just know
This isn't
My choice
Strip me down to nothing
Took away my voice

Look me in the eyes
All I hear is white noise
Looking at my options
Like it's multiple choice
Take me out the game
Then you hear the crowd rejoice
Trophy at the end
For making it i'll never hoist

Bursting at the seems
Can't take it any longer
Life keeping body counts
Like it's Killmonger
Y'all took a chance
On a kid
From a small town
With a big dream
And a big heart
Wanting to help
Wanna go far

Little did you know it
He had a brain blown open
Like he held up a gun
And pulled the trigger slowly
Waking up slowly
Find him dead in the morning

Didn't really happen
Just trying to give the scope of things
Let you all know
What all this nonsense means
Maybe I won't be
Here long enough to see
My dreams
Be more than dreams

Alone
In my mind
(Is anybody out there)
Alone
All the time
(Please is anybody out there)
Alone
Waiting for the last goodbye

One more time
Let's take it from the top

Alone
In my mind
(You know it be like that sometimes)
Alone
All the time
(You know life had to do it to em)
Alone
Waiting for the last goodbye
(I'm here to say
In every way
I'm not at full health)