Robby Royce - Revelation Lyrics

Sometimes I feel like John in patmos when he saw you
Cuz I see the end so clearly and it's all you
If my repentance needs a witness then I got a few
And the truth shall make me free like John 8:32
Some days I feel like John because I love Jesus
But like God treats me like job
Cuz I played a game with satan and he almost stole my soul
Thinking of my son growing up without a Dad and I froze before I paid the tole
His Mom took care of me when I got surgery on my nose and returned back to her role
So tell me whats the point of this life now where's the goal
To seek God will with all your heart Soul until your old
But I thought life was about gold and chasin fold
Might be bold but a lie in my poetry ive never told
Fighting mold in my soul to be lively and my heart feels cold
Cuz its broke two-fold like my nose

Maybe I'll head to the post
Cuz to be honest while I'm on this
About the one i miss the most
Still wish it went different that night she called from pacific coast
Driving wrecklass and her car was toast
But its that wrecklass that i miss the most
To roast and boast nah thats how I turn the page
And at 31 i just don't know if I can act my age
Send cease and desists to my email cuz my address changed
None of my exes live in texas but the future is open range
These things I've been saying
Is this poetry or rap? isn't it kinda the same
I guess it's poetry because it comes from pain
Happiest days of my life end in a stain it keeps replaying
No longer a kid my hairs greying
And my skins got more grain
These thoughts I can't tame
The only way to let the go is in my poetry and praying
I feel more and more insane
The costs outweighing
My reach
And the sad music is already playing
Im sitting here gazing at a wall
And im backed into a wall
Dismaying and its truly amazing
How I went from the top to the bottom to the top and back down in flames
Where do to from here because I don't think things will ever be the same
And I'm tired of the game
I only have myself to blame cuz when the devil came
I let him take my life again
Mamed by a shot at point blank range
Sunshine and kisses
Is now depression and rain
If I could fix it I would
I swear on everything
So
I'm sorry youll have to settle for someone half as fun as me
That loves you half as much as I did
And I'm sorry we'll never get to meet Royce our second kid
Wish it could be back then amid
When you were pregnant and we had a garage full of cars
And a house full of friends
Now all we got are court letters and sins
I still carry and regret but i cant seem to make amends and forget
Talk to my exes through my poetry cuz were still on long distance
And
Will I change how could I
I'd have sworn
I'm a sinner thats repented that never looks at porn
Those woman are battered and torn
And the spank reel in my head couldn't ever be reborn
Could last most till palms worn & through any ladies scorn
The more beautiful rose the sharper the thorn
We were adorn when we had an unborn
But Wasn't her firstborn and i was forwarned
We broke up and her friends swarmed
But I swear I've reformed
And who knows maybe one day we can reform
Not sure how it'll go after this is performed
Somedays I wish I could take it back like Finkle was Einhorn
Still get sad everytime I see mermaids or unicorns
Too bad at the end we fought like little big horn
Hell hath no furry like that scorn
Can't say I wasn't warned
Leaving me feeling naked as the day i was born
Courts finally ajourn
Thank God every morn
Underground now, before I was soarin soarn
For my baby son's time with me i mourn
My revelation is I'm torn