Focus Video (MV)

When I was a kid
I dreamed of flying rocket ships
Of building castles in the sky
Why would anyone leave that behind
And I can't help but picture
How life would have turned out
If I had kept my sense of wonder
If I hadn't squandered so much time
I faded away but I'm regaining focus
I'm breaking out of this daydream
I haven't been talking
'Cause nothing needed to be said
I've neglected thinking
For there were no thoughts to be had
It's not a wasted day if only somethings sticks this time
I faded away but I'm regaining focus
I've been building up steam
I can't believe that the world kept turning
I can't believe there's still no fade to black
You wouldn't know 'cause you failed to notice
"You didn't care", the words didn't sink in
I had the feeling these walls kept closing
I sought and sought but I couldn't find a crack
It's just for show, so I have been telling myself
I wasted time, but now I'm back on track
Months before turning sixteen
I woke up from the worst night I ever had
My brother's shouts still ring so loud now
The tone of his voice told me it was bad
I started checking out there and then
And I'm not sure if I ever got back
I still get flashes left and right now
Just chalk it up to panic attacks
I can't believe that the world keeps turning
I can't believe there's still no fade to black
You wouldn't know 'cause you failed to notice
"You didn't care", the words didn't sink in
I have the feeling these walls keep closing
I sought and sought but I couldn't find a crack
It's just for show, so I've been telling myself
I wasted time, but now I'm back on track