Angels Callin' Me Video (MV)

They said I've been acting crazy because I don't know how to express my feelings right
That's what I've been exposed to all my f*cking life, feel me?
And I ain't speaking bad about my family, none of that shit
But I hope these n****s f*cking feel me like on some real shit
I feel numb, I hear the angels callin' me
Turned your back on me, thought you was all for me
I can't see my grandma in that coffin
I rap about it, I don't do no talkin'
Havin' dark thoughts in my head everyday
I got too many people countin' on me
Havin' dark thoughts in my head everyday
I feel numb, I hear the angels callin' me
Where was you when I was in that cell tho?
Couldn't pay 70 thousand for my bail tho
I was down bad on my dick, I ain't had no time to cry
I ain't do none to that bitch, I ain't got no time to lie
Can't express my feelings right, they say I'm crazy
Honestly, I feel like this how my dad raised me
They don't understand how I been feelin' lately
Could be in the be streets, I'm workin' on craft
Can't be like that n***a, stayin' on my ass
Still wanna f*ck with you even tho I got trust issues
Risking my life for you 'cause I feel all alone
But I'ma stay away 'cause I can't text your phone
And this shit breaks my heart 'cause I can't let you go
I'm 18, I can see that life gettin' real
I ain't fully on yet but I signed a deal
Wait 'til I'm on a jet to count a hunnit mil'
I feel numb, I hear the angels callin' me
Turned your back on me, thought you was all for me
I can't see my grandma in that coffin
I rap about it, I don't do no talkin'
Havin' dark thoughts in my head everyday
I got too many people countin' on me
Havin' dark thoughts in my head everyday
I feel numb, I hear the angels callin' me
Been takin' Percocets so it could heal me
Had thoughts in my head, tellin' myself kill me
I won't show anyone the real me
Writing suicide notes in my songs so they could feel me
Do you know how it feels when your own brother tried to kill you?
Ever tried to make a song and had n****s feel you?
Havin' nightmares about goin' back in that cell
They pray on my downfall, hoping that I will fail
Last year, my father was doin' everything for me
He said some shit out of anger, thought he didn't care for me
The shit he said, you should never say to your kids
He will never change 'cause that's the way he is
You didn't believe me when I told you I'm fightin' depression
Not the only one goin' through shit 'cause you take meditation
You the only parent I got, that shit f*cked up my head
And I take back every hurtful shit I said
I feel numb, I hear the angels callin' me
Turned your back on me, thought you was all for me
I can't see my grandma in that coffin
I rap about it, I don't do no talkin'
Havin' dark thoughts in my head everyday
I got too many people countin' on me
Havin' dark thoughts in my head everyday
I feel numb, I hear the angels callin' me