Rogê - Black Sheep Lyrics

Don't wanna run from the person who I am
But I'm scared of the person that I've become
Outside lookin quiet, but the inside is a riot
Think the C.O went K.O, damn those demons so defiant

Like that friendly giant, smoking on that green
Wanna be the highest, life'll be serene
Dream sail like marine, despair back like routine
My life I have foreseen, one dead reported at the scene

Cop reported homicide, but really it was suicide
Hide the name, don't want the fame
Just want the joy that came with it

Any drug you know I'm wit it, don't touch my wrist, know I slit it
Cop another 50 bag, hope the dealer stepped in it

First line my head drop on the desk, I dreamt of it
Isolated like a cultist in hopes my pain goes unnoticed
Line for line but still won't get me high, no one even knows this
Think I need a stronger dose, I feel it death is f*cking close

If I hide no one else will be in danger
Collateral damage let me be a stranger
Aura isn't colorful, my energy contagious
Walking rainy day, don't wanna ruin your parade

Drugs turned me to a zombie, but I wouldn't trade it
All led me to this moment, so I'd never change it
Chasing dreams, I'm by my lone, watch me I'm gonna range it
Somewhere 'fore I hit my peak, I'll ode I arranged it

Too much heartbreak in this life, stay away I said it twice
Heart is cold as ice, don't wanna be another vice
One day I'm gon' make it shatter, keep the blessings on the platter
Cuz to me life never mattered, just want an impact that'll scatter

All across the world make something you can cry to
Crucify myself like Jesus, so you ain't gotta die too
Don't be scared to let out feelings from the shit you've been through
Emotions in a cage, unlock no telling what they gon' do

If I hide no one else will be in danger
Collateral damage let me be a stranger
Aura isn't colorful, my energy contagious
Walking rainy day, don't wanna ruin your parade

Drugs turned me to a zombie, but I wouldn't trade it
All led me to this moment, so I'd never change it
Chasing dreams, I'm by my lone, watch me I'm gonna range it
Somewhere 'fore I hit my peak, I'll ode I arranged it

National emergency, please stay away from the drugs
Shit is really killing me, trust me you don't wanna feel
Smile on your face tell me how it'd feel?
Had it stripped away for me, it's been years to keep it real

Those connections with your peers must be nice
Say goodbye, in your room getting high
Your goddaughters looking for you, little life miracle
Uncles not around, probably smoked out in his vehicle

Never learned to deal with feelings, can you f*cking blame me?
Never understood me, they just gonna shame me
Paranoid cuz you don't wanna get caught
But you ever gave this a quick second thought?

Worried 'bout the wrong chains, you already up in shackles
Listen closer to your mind you'll hear Satan cackle
Karma playing qb, the devil is the tight end
Karma gives the green light, Satan goes for tackle