Holding On Video (MV)

Mind is tripping
I been reminiscin
As I paint this picture
Trying to take you with me
I just left the kitchen
Sitting with my sister
In the dining room
Except a chair is empty
And my ears are tuned
The news is cold
But in the month of June
Or closer to July
But I could barely try to formulate a sentence
Vibrato low
With the lip that quiver
Shivers in my spine
Taken back
We almost died the last time this happened
It's no longer safe
And we should probably pack
Or padlock the pad
Because the past attack
Paranoid
Probably cuz I never been here before
Scared and unaware if I could hear the voice
Fill the void
From the noise
Silence joins
Unavoided
Reality that remain
Praying to love my family member
Suffering from schizophrenic disorder like when they were sane
Anxious now even rewriting this pain
Thoughts off the tracks
And I can't stop this train
Things complicated and can't quite explain
All the days I would come back from school and endangered
By what might have changed all inside of the brain
Man
Conversations people say it's crazy and I'll be okay
I don't talk about it cuz I never feel like anyone relate
Cold nights
Pray this song hold you
No ice
But the time's frozen
When you up til the dawn
I'm gone cry with you
Barely holding on
Barely holding on
Barely holding on
Barely holding on
Barely holding on
Barely holding on
When you up til the dawn
I'm gone cry with you
Barely holding on
I'm just barely holding on
Barely holding on
Barely holding on
Barely holding on
Barely holding on
When you up til the dawn
I'm gone cry with you
Barely holding on
Barely holding on
What good is faith without hope
Drive but don't know where to go
Love but no place to call home
Have you had someone you know
Not hold convos and speak in a code
Tip toe with words cuz they'll go off the rope if you misspoke
That might just provoke
Hurt you didn't sow
Reaping cuts before
Wounds you didn't know
I heard of God but feel hard when I choke
Not cuz somebody had shoved down my throat
I just can't start to think how I can cope
If all the power to stop this is known
Maybe its a no, no yet
But a yes just makes way more sense
Doubt is like rent making hope here evict
And my mind unconvinced
Cold nights
Pray this song hold you
No ice
But the time's frozen
When you up til the dawn
I'm gone cry with you
Barely holding on
Barely holding on
Barely holding on
Barely holding on
Barely holding on
Barely holding on
When you up til the dawn
I'm gone cry with you
Barely holding on
I'm just barely holding on