Rosario - Honey Lyrics

Where did it all start?
When I try to think back it was the love from my mother that was there
When I didn't have another to compare
Well, I wouldn't be here if it wasn't for her grace and and the strength of my brother
It's a miracle they cared
We were there for each other
In the mirror I was scared
I was skinny, I was pale
I was sick, I was barren
All my hair was disappearing
I was scaring off my loved ones
Being young and developing as a young man
How much of the weight can I bear with these young hands?
How much can you carry when the pressure of the world bends back
And it twists 'til it snaps and your life ends?
These are some every day thoughts
And it haunts me the way that time taunts me and bosses me constantly
Chasing the past when the future is calling me
Changing my plans when my choices catch up to me
Guess I've had enough of me, let me come down
I've been sitting on my soapbox, reaching for the couch
Fear the belly of the beast but it starts at the mouth
Tell my family I love them if I never make it out
Man, it's just the opener
You ain't gotta get so heavy
This the intro, you ain't gotta spit
Man, forget it
I'm alive now
And this is what I meant
Saying "why now?"
Can't do it when I'm dead
Look, I don't wait for the third to convert, I just snap
Not a sprint but if you're not in first, you're in last
I've been living like the devil lit a fire under my ass
It's been hard not to harp on the past
My flowers still bloom even when the room stays dark
Getting sunlight breathes life into your heart
I planted my roots and I grew to the stars
Young mind with a knife carving lines in my bark
Well is it art or a scar?
I think the pain that we suffer make us all who we are
I'm not proud of who I was
But I've been making up for par like ever stroke I ever swung was leading up to play tomorrow
Never meant to set the bar low but I'd crawl to get back over
I know that given the chance I'd be the best I've ever was
And it's not something for discussing
I'm a shower not a teller
And I'm never one to rush it but I'm readier than ever
I just wanna move past the pain
I'm tired of having the past to blame
I write music just to pass the days
My life is moving in a thousand ways
And the entropy it drowns me
I'm moving into territory I don't think allows me
Can I make the jump into a state that won't bound me?
Am I making sense or is this 'crazy as it's sounding?
Tell me how we move the mountains when the strength still hasn't found me